Adopted by the shaytards *COMPLETED*

Going

Listen to too good by Troyes Sivan while reading this I think it sounds good with the chapter
The boy is above in pic
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I'm going to his room. I need to know who he is. I don't even know his name and we kissed. I sneak out of our hotel room and run to his room. I get in the elevator and go down two floors. I'm in joggers and a t shirt. I don't even know him what am I doing. I could be kidnapped. I don't care I need to see him. I need too. I get to his room. I quietly knock on the door and then tuck my hands in my pocket. A couple of seconds later I see him standing in the doorway. He takes my hand and puts it in his. He drags me into his room. I see no other people in the small room. I sit down on the bed and his hand is still in mine. Who are u I ask the attractive boy. Joe he replies. My name is he stops me. Blake I know who u are. I'm not creepy I love u. Umm ok I reply. Listen u don't know me but I know you the boy says. Now go back he says u don't need me right now when you do I'll be there says joe. He kissed my check and I feel myself blush. He takes my hand and leads me out of the room. I walk really slowly back to the room. I get back in and lay in the couch. I loved Annie but now I love him, Joe. I feel myself blush whenever I'm around him. I'm not gay though. I need to figure this out. I love girls but I think I love him. I'm never going to see him though. But he says he will see me when I need him. How do I know that's true. He is probably just a fanboy. But I love him. I know I do. My pants were slightly tighter but I can't. I can't do this. My thoughts kept me up all night and I slept the whole way to Idaho. A blanket covering what I hoped no one would see. Thank god it eventually went away. The house is okay. I get my own bedroom in the attic. I will get plenty of alone time away from everyone else. I hate it tho. My room is the only good part. There is no way I'm going out and playing in the mud with all the other kids. I lock myself in my room. No one understands how hard this is for me. I'm not gonna know anyone at school. All of the other kids will know them because they used to go to school here. I don't want to live anymore. I just can't. I tell mom and dad I'm going to take a walk. They nod it off. They think nothing about it.  I don't think they will care if I'm gone. They are having another baby. It can replace me. I walk into the woods. I pull out the knife. The biggest one I could find. I cut both ways on both arm as deep as I could. I was bleeding a lot. The ground beneath was covered in red blood. And I fell to the ground I had lost consciences.
Shays POV.
Blake had been gone for a while and so I went to go find slash check up on him. I walked a few feet into the woods and I saw him. His body lay in blood. Cuts down his arm. Blood on his shirt and a knife. He did this to himself I thought. I thought he stopped. I realized I had no time to stand there. I called 911 and picked him up running back to the house. The ambulance was on the way. His breathing was so shallow I had to keep checking to see if he was alive. Warm blood had made a stain on my back. He was still losing blood. Collete saw me coming and made the kids go upstairs. The tears were still pouring out of my eyes. Collete burst out of the back door and ran to us. Just then we saw the ambulance we kept running forward them. They opened the back door and later him inside. They put breathing machines on him and covered his arms in thick gauze we were told not to come see him until the next day. As Collete and I turned around to go back torwards the house we saw our kids standing on the front porch. We explained that Blake was losing blood because he was hurt. No one knew Blake had ever hurt himself and we weren't planning on telling anytime soon 💉