Lmao I'm not sorry for this chapter in advance. I hate you. But I don't hate you. You piss me off. Not because you're with the guy I love. Not because you hurt Me. But because you are a stupid fucking hypocrite. I mean so fucking stupid.
Let me explain why.
So remember how we were like best friends? And I like told u everything? Then we like stopped being friends. And I was broken. But I forgave you. Then it all happened again. AND I STILL FUCKING FORGAVE YOU.
Dumbass you are not nobody. If you were nobody I wouldn't have forgiven you TWICE.
"Hes older and long distance so it wouldn't work out"
He. Is. Older. And. Long. Distance.
I'm still trying to fucking process that.
You. You just. YOU ARE THE SAME FUCKING AGE AS ME AND EVEN FARTHER AWAY SO DONT YOU EVEN DARE.
dumb. Fucking. Bitch.
Now you know how I feel.
Now you know why it fucking hurts. Because he's so far away. And he's older. And every fucking day you think "why would he ever like a dumb kid like me?"
Because I thought that. Every. Fucking. Day.
And now I have to sit here, each fucking day and think "I'm a dumbass. But he would have never loved me anyways"
I would kill just to talk to him. Just to ask how he's doing. Just to listen to his problems and try to fix them.
But you have him. And no offense but you suck at fixing problems.
Smh. "Let him go. You will do okay without him"
I believed you.
And the day I let him go it didn't feel that bad.
But each fucking day it gets worse and worse. I miss him. Im not fucking okay without him.
And he wasn't hurting me. I was hurting myself and I just want him back.
Lmao but he was never even mine in the first place so idk why I'm trippin.
Oh wait
I'm In love with him. Oops.
And don't tell me to stop writing about you or him. Because that's the exact thing you do.
Yeah uh huh. You sitting there, telling me to stop writing about you two, to get over you both
When you were sitting there. Writing about me.
Not forgetting me. And not letting me go so don't you even for a second say some shit like that.
Aight imma stop before I really start calling u names
Bc we all know how fucking 'fragile' you are.
Little fucking princess.
