Stuck Being A Fangirl

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A/N: Please play 'Close As Strangers - 5SOS' while reading this part.

After one year.... 

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Axel Blaze Monteverde
@AxelMCyBlue   1 min ago...

Hi love @YliahMione! It's been a year. Happy first anniversary my love! Stay strong to us. 

*insert picture ulit lol. HAHAHAHHAA*

Heto ako ngayon nagiisaaaa. Hahahahah k charot. Masakit pa rin. Pero keri lang, dun siya masaya e. Ano ba naman ako sa kanya? Isa lang naman akong hamak na fangirl niya. I have no rights to be jealous. 

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Ako si Akira Cassia Parker, forever fangirl of Cynical Blue. Sa hirap at ginhawa, aasahan niyong titiisin ang lahat ng sakit na inyong ginagawa. Saying, "Being a fan doesn't mean you were there from the start. It means you are willing to be there until the end." 

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Sabi nga ng kanta, "Are we wasting time? Talking on a broken line. Telling you I, haven't seen your face in ages. I feel like we're as close as strangers. Won't give up, even thought it hurts so much. Every night I'm losing you in a thousand faces, I feel like we're as close as strangers." Yeah. We're close as strangers. 

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Thank you for the music.
Thank you for the concert (kahit na ni-isa wala akong napuntahan.)
Thank you for memories.
Thank you for making me happy.
Thank you for making me smile wherever I see you smile.
Thank you for making me laugh.
Thank you for inspiring me.  
Thank you for making me who I am.
Thank you for everything.
Thank you for changing my life.
Thank you Cynical Blue.
Thank you.

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We all know that loving someone you don't see everyday (or even you don't lol) is not bad. It's just a proof love is not in sight but in the heart. 

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I don't know how fandoms started, but even if you're not in one, you can't deny the beauty of them. Fandoms have helped so many people to find thoer true self. Fandoms have taught is so many amazing lessons in life. One of them was 'learning to accept what the reality is.' Fandoms hepled us in so many ways, from developing creativity to saving lives to making long-life relationships. Although fandoms may fight and argue and cause drama, they, ang everyone in them, are marvelous and wonderful, and I am so part to be a part of the amazing fandom family. 

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It's hard, it's hard to love you like that, more than anything in the world. It's hard to think about you all the time, to live just for you. It's hard to always see you with your girl, to know that one day you will be the boyfriend of someone. But that day came. It really hurts me as hell. It's hard to realized that I will never meet you, never hug you, and never kiss you even I try to have a little bit of hope. But you know what's the hardest thing? Is that the same moment that I'm writing this, you don't even know I exist or you'll never know it. 

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Being a fangirl is harder than you thought. Even though I will always be just another fangirl in the sea of millions, I shall support you until the end.

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I, the fangirl, live in a life where the reality is my biggest weakness and enemy. 

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I, the fangirl, I'll be forever that girl in his crowd and it hurts to be just the girl in his crowd and never be his girl, his world. 

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I, the fangirl, declaring that I have celebriphilia, an intense desire to have a romantic relationship with a celebrity. 

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I, the fangirl, signing off. 

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THE END...