Finding Neverland

chapter 1

oh shit. I overslept again.

I thought as I heard my iPhone alarm go off for the fourth time and realized its 6:40am. Which means I have exactly 10 mins to get ready and run to the bus. 

As I throw on my black high top converse and grab my bag I run to the bus and I just missed it, fuck. Well I guess here goes another day walking to school and being late for class.

Oh yeah I forgot to introduce myself even though you don't really care, I'm Tellulah Martin. And I know what you are thinking , Tellulah ?? What the hell kind of name is that, well my free spritied parents decieded to name me that after having four other children before me and picked out boring names for them. But most people call me T cause they dont have the mental capacity to pronounce it right and I don't have the patience either, I'm um 16, dark brown hair and dark brown eyes, 5'2 and I haved lived in New York all my life, 

Well yes  today I was late for my first period class and it sucked cause everyone looked at me but I have done it before so my teacher didn't even acknowledge me. In school I'm not much of a talker, sure I have three close friends but everyone is kinda irrelevant, I dont do sports nor I'm I popular because who gives a rats ass its high school and I only have three more years left with all these shit heads and then I'm gone.

Lately life has just been feeling like a never ending cycle of existing, I think as I look at out the window in my last class. It was late October so fall was here. Meaning grey skies and color changing leaves. I watched a leaf fall off a tree and cascade with the wind, whisking it to who knows where.

The bell finally rang and as I entered the overcrowded hallway, my friend Andrea came up to me, "hey T!!" she shouts enthusiastically, Andrea has always been so loud. I have know Andrea since I was little cause she lives next door, but other than that I don't understand how we're friends since we are total opposites. She would be described as popular, extroverted, loud, annoying and sometimes attention seeking, but I know she means well so.  As I was snapped out of my thoughts Andrea says "T are you even listening to me?!" she says while crossing the street. I sigh in annoyance but understanding "yes, yes Andrea, I always I'm you know that." I say. She huffs but continues her story about some dude liking her or some bullshit, but I learned how to tune her out after many years. She is more of the talker and I'm the listener if you get my jist. As she is just babbling along, I think about having a boyfriend. Andrea has tried to set me up with many guys before but I'm not interested in any of them, they are all so.. boring. I want someone who is distracting.

I mean I know a guy I like but, its complicated.  He's, well I'd describe him as magical. Then Andrea grabs my shoulder and before I realize it we are standing in front of our houses. She asks "T, are you alright? You've been out of it, more than usual lately." she giggles lightly. "Yeah I just haven't been sleeping well lately, that's all." If she had any idea oh god, I thought. "Don't worry about good old Tellulah here." I say while giving a fake smile. She tilts her head and gives me a sympathetic look. She nods her head and says " Well okay see you tomorrow loser, bright and early." as she runs into her house.

I sigh loudly as I fall onto my bed. I'm so exhausted I thought. 

Its the same routine everyday. Wake up late, go to school, listen to Andrea, fake being functional to my family, go to see Peter and repeat.

When I sleep I don't really sleep. In my dreams I go to Neverland. You're probably thinking I'm fucking insane, I swear I'm not.

But, also my best friend is peter pan.