Love And Marriage

You Desever better

Tae Pov.
After Hakeem told us what all happen last night it really broke my heart. Nae came back with bre and went into the guest room and went to sleep in there. We all knew she was still in shock and hurt after talking about that so we all stayed.  She has been really quite the only time you would here her talk is to bre or when we ask her something.  Its all over Hakeem face that it hurts him.

Brittany Pov.
Man.  Seeing nae like this brought back memories from years back and not only that but Hakeem is hurting.  I know it's about to be some shit because in both Trey and Hakeem eyes there's hurt but also revenge. I just really hope nae get better.

Miracle Pov.
Hey y'all I'm miracle joshes new bae and wife hanging out with them girls just give me life. Now after yesterday day and what Hakeem told us my girl nae has been sad and it's hurting to see the one that gives me advice is down. I hope she get better.

Hakeem Pov.
Man nae came home with bre and went straight into the guest room. Today is the day I find me a new assistance and she wanted to go but it's like she's being distance and she don't talk like unless someone ask her something or talking to the baby.  Now we're riding in separate cars.  So we get in my office and when nae came in some of the looks they we're giving nae was mhm. And if I was them I wouldn't try her. So there we're a few women that I can tell that nae like and didn't like.  It was time for nae to go and order  the things for her store. So I  had told the ladies we found one and we will call and let them know. After the girls left me and nae had a small conversation she was about to go but I'm not about to go  home and get ignored and let her be like this. The good thing bre  was sleep so we had all the time we needed to talk.

Me:Nae?

Nae: Mhmm?

Me: Come here

Nae:No Hakeem I have to go

Me:Damnit nae why can't you see that I'm hurting to huh? You walking around here not talking to nobody not showing me no love not being your self is just not good to look at.  Why are you running? And you sitting up here acting like im not going to be there for you hell just get over that shit and move on with your life.

After I said that I knew I kinda mess up.

Nae: Hakeem I'm sorry OK I'm sorry I had to have a rehash of what I went threw, I'm sorry OK but what you have to understand that man is after me and not only me but our family I'm trying to think on what I will do and say because what if he see me but your not around then what?  Hakeem you have to understand that man hurt me to my core it's not easy telling the one that you want to spend your life with that you still have dreams about that shit, is scared of something happening to my family its going to be my fault Again so I'm sorry if you feel like I have to wake up and forget that I was beaten to death, shot,in a fucking comma and was raped and then have to do shit I didn't like doing but I have to. Wake up Hakeem this is fucking life and my life back then is coming to me again . *she said with tears streaming down her face and then walk off and slammed the door.

Nae Pov.
My life is just fuck up. I know I've been quite and not talking but I have a lot of shit on my mind and I'm still broken. But for Hakeem to get piss and then tell me to get over it really hurted me but piss me off. So right now I'm on my way to my shop to sign some papers. It took about 25mins to get everything ready and it was successful because bre was with me and she was a good girl. As I put her in the car I got a call I didn't know who it was from because my phone was in my purse so I answer it and it was the last person I wanted to talk to.

Me:hello?

Kayla: Hey janae can we sit down and talk somewhere.

As I was thinking yes but I knew it was a set up for me to meet her and Devin nope.And see what she not getting when it comes to me I care yes but my child I care 100 times more and I'm not about to let any one hurt her because of the choices I made in the past.  And if that means blood then it shall be received but not for me nor my family.

Me:Oh Kayla I think that would be a nice thing full of bull shit. I'm not about to talk to you after all these years no.

Kayla: I'm.  Trying to be nice and start over.

Me:Yea and I'm trying to be nice by not cussing you out now if you would please excuse me I have mommy duties to get to.

After that I hung up and went on about my business. When I pull in the drive way I see everyone had left and it was just hakeem here. So I go in and see him laying down on the bed and as soon as bre saw her daddy she went crazy. My baby is at her phase of saying names and walking around.  These moments I cherish.

Hakeem:Hey baby girl. Daddy miss you.

Bre:Ah..da da.. da daaaa

So while they talk I go get into something comfortable. Being a mommy is the best thing. We have bre on a schedule so she will be able to sleep through the night. And right now it was time for her nap but I know she barley see hakeem since we both have our businesses.  So I let them have their moment while I went down stairs to go and do some research.

15mins later

Hakeem: Hey.

Me:Hey where bre at?

Hakeem:I laid her down her for her nap.

Me:oh ok. " I said getting up to walk out but he grab my waist.

Hakeem: Come on ma can we talk.

Me: About what ?

Hakeem: *sighs* Baby I never knew how much pain you we're in until today after you left. I was being selfish and thinking about my feelings when I should've been thinking how I'm going to help you get threw and over your pain and protect you. Nae I just want you to know I don't want to ever hear you say it's your fault a man put his hands on you. Because it's not your fault it's his like I said. 

Me: Hakeem I just want you to understand the words that you say is really hurtful. And baby I know I been stand off ish but that's not easy telling you what all I went through because I know it made you feel bad because of what all was said.  Look hakeem we been through  a lot these past years I just want to be happy baby I do *starts to cry* I don't wanna have to keep walking around here watching my back because I have someone after me I don't want to keep getting into arguments and me being mad at you because of the stuff you saying or you being mad at me for not coming home when you want me baby I want us to be worry free like we both have good things ahead of us it's just the simple things keep stopping us.

Hakeem: I get it ma b it you have to trust me I am trying I promise you I'm trying and sometimes I just feel like your going to want something more and I'm not going to be able to give it to you and you up and leave and I don't want you to worry  ok because I'm going to protect you you just have to trust me baby.

Me: I trust you hakeem.

Hakeem: I know lets go and catch up on rosewood.

After that talk I felt better and now I'm starting to see I did deserve better and I got it.