Love And Marriage

No Healing

Hakeem Pov.
After nae threw the ring and left I knew then I just lost the woman I loved.I know I should've never did that with keke but I really wasn't in my right state of mind. But at the same time I should've told nae the day it all happen.  Bre walked in the room and sat down on the floor next to me.

Bre: Is mommy mad at us daddy? 

And this is the most hardest thing I have ever faced.

Me: No baby mommy isn't mad at you she's mad at me.

Bre: Well daddy say sorry. Member you told me anytime I do something that's wrong and it hurt other people I have to say sorry. So say sorry.

Hakeem: Its not that easy for me baby. You see daddy keeps hurting mommy and mommy is very hurt right now because of the wrong things I've been doing . But listen here bre I don't ever want you saying I don't love you anymore because I do daddy just been very busy and I haven't been making the right choices .

Bre: okay but why can't mommy forgive you. She has to because she tells you every day she loves you and care so why cant she forgive you?

Me:*sighs* Its not that east baby.

Janae Pov.

I finally came back to this home of lies . So as I was about to walk in the room I over heard hakeem talking bre. This is the most hardest thing I have ever been threw and now that bre can half way understand that's going to make it harder .  So I finally walked in and bre got up and came to me.

Bre: Mommy you have to forgive daddy

Me:Bre it's not that easy but what I can tell you is that mommy still loves your daddy and I love you to but right now mommy and daddy can't seem to get alone right now. So let me talk to your daddy go to your room.

Bre:No not until you forgive daddy .You said we have to forgive people that hurt us and your not doing the same.

Me.Aubrey Nicole Lyon I get you might be upset but you will not be disrespectful now take your ass up to your room before I whoop you to it.

After that she left and I was once again faced with all the hurt and pain again.

Hakeem: look I know your upset and all but I just need to know do you still love me? 

Me: I will always love you but you don't love me look hakeem today has been one long ass day and Im done with today me . And I can't keep on trying to love you when all you do is push me away by doing this bullshit. Ill say this you either get your shit together  and figure out what your going to do or I will take you to court. Can u please get out .

After that he left.  Looking around this room with pictures and the memories just brings tears to me. It almost feels like I'm begging these walls to love me and show me that I don't ever have to wake up one day with out it leaving me. I went and turned on the shower. As I was in the shower I had my music blasting and one song stuck out to me. I just want somebody to treat me like somebody.  But the pain I feel I just don't think any other woman has felt this way.