What do you do when you feel like the world is closing in on you? When you feel like you physically can't move because you are so depressed? The world seems to be crashing down around me and apparently it's taking my friends with it. I keep having to put on a brave face not only for the public eye, but also for myself. In reality though, everything is not ok. It hasn't been for a while, and it doesn't seem like it will get better anytime soon. The thoughts of worthlessness and every other thought running through my head is slowly tearing me apart and breaking me down. I can't take it anymore. Not to mention all of the outside problems with family, school, friends,etc. It's all too much and if all this pressure keeps building up I'm going to bust. I just don't want to deal with this anymore. I mean what is the point of going through life if it is just going to be lived this way. With being unsure of if you will be able to survive the next day, having to question whether things will ever get better, and not knowing what to do when even your best friend, who is like a sister to you, can't comfort you. Life is a joke, and it likes to play games with you, never allowing you to know what your next move can/will be. Nothing in life is ever solidified until the moment something happens. Does that make sense to you? In my head I know what I want to say, but I don't know if it is being put down on paper the same way I want to present it. What do you do when you have been captured in the strong grasp of depression that strengthens it's hold on you every time you try to get away? You can either give up, or you can keep trying to pull away until you slip from it's grasp. The only thing is, that's a long rode and it's not very easy. Depression has a way of luring you in and never letting you see the light of day for more then a second at random times. It drains the hope from you leaving you weak and limp. It feeds on your despair and strengthens as it continues to play sadistic games with your mind. There is nothing you can to but ride this horrible roller coaster and hold on until it ends, whether it's through the ending of life or the release from a grasp that has held you for such a long time. But when these are your only two options, which do you reach for?
What do you do?
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Drowning
RandomThis may be depressing at times. Just a fair warning. It is a way for me to get out how i feel and may be useful to others that read it because I know there are people that are going through the same things as me. Sometimes we feel like we are drown...
