I'm sorry.
I wish I could have been better for you, done more for you, but I couldn't.
I regret it, all of it. If I could take it back i would.
But I cant. But don't worry, I am suffering for what I did and I forever will.
I'm ok with that because I deserve the pain, the thoughts, the voices, having to replay the memories again and again until I just want to claw them from my mind to stop the suffering.
If I could take it back I would.
I hate myself, I hate what I deal with everyday, I hate being the way I am.
You are gone, like a puff of smoke cleared by the wind, never to return.
He tells me it's gonna be ok and not to beat myself up but I cant help it you were at my fingertips and I let you go.
Go.
Go.
Gone.Never to return, but forever here, in my head, a scar on my heart, a piece of me taken with you as you exit my life.
Pain.
Regret.
Self hate.The list goes on and on and I take it all for you. To do you justice.
But at the same time knowing that it'll never be enough.
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Drowning
De TodoThis may be depressing at times. Just a fair warning. It is a way for me to get out how i feel and may be useful to others that read it because I know there are people that are going through the same things as me. Sometimes we feel like we are drown...