Tears of confession [Bleach]

Act I: Ichigo

It's been two years since the Winter war and the defeat of Aizen, a lot of things happened since that day. Firstly I almost lost my powers, but Shiro (Ichigo's inner Hollow) saved me. He unified himself with me in some way, he did it to recharge my spiritual powers. No one knew how he did that, which really bothered Mayuri and Kisuke. That didn't mean that I stopped being a vizard, completely the opposite. When Shiro disappeared and unified himself with me, I became even more a vizard than my fellow vizard mates. My hollow side and my shinigami one finally were in peace and complete balance... but one thing that I'll never admit out loud is that I miss Shiro. That little shit drove me crazy and wanted to see me dead, but he had always been there to save my sorry ass when I needed him.

Talking about the vizards. Surprisingly when the old man Yamamoto offered them to go back to soul society, they refused saying that they'd rather stay here in Karakura with me. Stating that it was their duty protect and defend our territory from other packs. It seems like hollow have packs, so vizards have them too.

The surviving Arrancar are no problem either. When Aizen was defeated Grimmjow took over the throne of Las Noches as its new king. The bastard of Aizen used the powers of his sword to make the ex-Sexta think that he was weaker than him, but in reality Grimmjow was the strongest of all the Spadas and shinigami traitors. The true ruler of Las Noches and the Hueco world.

As so he made sure that all the Arrancar left Karakura alone, also there was a big diminution in the hollow activity since he took over. In a way I was thankful for that, my studies got better... a lot better. When I graduated I was the third of my class, just behind Uryu and Inue. However, I knew that Grimmjow only did that so I would be on my best capacity to fight him.

Not that I don't like a good fight, but fighting Grimmjow always lead to the same thing... rough sex against the nearest surface. I don't know how it started. One moment we were clashing swords and throwing punches, the next second he had me pinned against a wall kissing the life out of me.

I don't know when I've started noticing how handsome his features were, or how hot his macho alpha attitude was. But what I know is that I had fallen head over heels for Grimmjow and that there was no turning back.

At the moment I was sulking on the kitchen table of my house. I sighed as I looked around the mess of the room. Previously there had been a celebration, where all my friends (minus the ones from Sereit), Kisuke, Yoruichi, Tessai, Jinta, Ururu, the vizards, my little sisters and dad assisted. After all I had been accepted into the Tokyo medicine school, and I was to start there next fall.

No matter how much I tried for the rest that worked so hard to make me this small party, I couldn't manage to feel happy at all. My head was full of so many conflicted thoughts that it made it almost impossible to feel anything but frustration and sadness.

Sighing again, I looked up from my beer to the picture of my mother and thought to myself: I can't believe I will do this, not after how much I shouted at my father for being so stupid to do it himself but... mom, help me. I don't know what to do. Which is the right way to calm my aching heart?

"Berry!"

Talking about Rome. I commented, snorting, in my head before turning around to face Grimmjow, and hissed at him angrily.

"Shut it! My family is asleep and I don't want them to wake up".

"What happened here" he demanded to know, he never asks because he is too good for that "It looks like a party" he commented, cornering me against the table with his hands on the back of my chair, each one on a side of my head. The fucker even had the nerve to smirked when I blushed because he leaned down, so he would be at my eye level, making our lips be only millimeters away "You had fun and didn't invite me. Ch, ch, it's not a right move to anger the King of Hueco world. No one told you that before".

"Fuck you!" I cursed under my breath, but because we were so close he was able to hear me which, made him chuckle.

"I would love to" he purred seductively before stealing a sensual and slow kiss from me, a kiss that left me with a ragged breathing "But first..." the bastard teased me and flashed me his idiotic cocky smirk "... what was the party for?".

"To celebrate my acceptance to the college of medicine from Tokyo" I replied, licking my lips unconsciously.

I enjoyed the way his eyes followed my tongue, as if he was invoke to do so. There was something about giving up control and becoming someone's center of attention. I gave up so much for the shinigami and that only got me to be their side kick to call whenever they had a problem and left when I had finished my 'duty', of course not counting my friends there. But with Grimmjow I didn't have to act strong or fight for attention, he gave it to me immediately. I even think that he gets off on him having the upper hand.

However, like with the shinigami when I had completed my use I was discarded away like a toy without any use. And that made me feel... well, used but in a complete different sense than with the Gotei 13.

Suddenly I was brought back from my thoughts when he attacked my lips again, but this time it was roughed and more demanding than before. He began caressing my thighs, instinctively I opened my legs for him to be more comfortable, my body already in tune with his after so many nights of passion shared between both of us.

"That's it, good boy. Opening your legs for me without any protest, like a bitch in heat" he murmured huskily in my ear before nipping my earlobe.

I don't know if it was what he said in that moment, or the accumulation of so much frustration and hurt, or that I finally saw that I was a toy for him, but something broke inside of me at that moment. Something that made me push him away, use my Substitute Shinigami badge to turn into my shinigami form and ran away from him, heading to the door towards the Gotei 13. Of course, Grimmjow followed me and caught me just only a few meters away from my objective.

"What the hell?!" he cursed, glaring at me "What is wrong with you!".

"I love you, son if a bitch! That is what is wrong with me!" I screamed at him.

Tears of anger and frustration burning behind my eyelids, but not letting the fall. I couldn't let him see me more vulnerable. Grimmjow let go of his grip on me to look at me as if I had grown a second head.

"What did you say" he said, now with a more leveled tone of voice.

"I love you, Grimmjow. But I am only a game for you, a toy to use whenever you are bored. I can't keep on doing this not anymore" I told him, hating how pleading I sounded.

"You want this to finish" he clarified with a deep scowl.

I just chuckled humorless and took advantage of this slip up of his, I flashed step to the enter of the door and waited for it to close. But before that I told him sincerely:

"You can't finish something that never started" I let a single lone tear trail my cheek and my eyes drown in the beauty of Grimmjow for the last time, before watching the doors close separating me from him.

When I got to Rukongai I wandered for a while before noticing Renji's raitsu and following it towards a very homey and Japanese style cafe. But what surprised me the most is who I found in there, they were...