Don't Let Me Go

Chapter 9

"Lily," he breathed.




"I'm sorry."




I tried to get up and run away. I didn't want this to happen. I couldn't be rejected. I couldn't have that sinking feeling mixed into my pit of emotions.




"Lily wait," Harry pleaded as he grabbed my forearm pulling me back down on top of him.




"We can't do this and you know it."




"Who said anybody has to know?"




I didn't like the way his voice sounded edgy when he said nobody has to know. I couldn't resist him though. I just wanted to be engulfed in his arms and fall asleep to the sound of his heartbeat. I wanted to feel the fuzzy warm feeling in my heart. I decided not to think and just kiss.




I pressed my small lips against Harry's. I felt him kiss back and I smiled a little. I couldn't believe this was happening. The kisses started to deepen to the point where we were both gasping for breath after every breath-taking kiss. I wrapped my arms around his neck wanting to be pressed closer to him. I felt his hands move closer to my bum. I felt blushing creep up on my cheeks once again. I gave Harry one last kiss before setting my head on his chest and listening to his heartbeat.




"Why'd you stop," Harry whined.




"Be glad it even started," I said with a wink.




I felt Harry's phone vibrate in his pocket. Somehow he managed to get it out of his skin-tight jeans.




"Niall said there's a party tonight you wanna go?"




"Might as well."




Harry threw me over his back fire-man style and carried me upstairs. He dropped me right in front of my door and gave me a sloppy kiss on the cheek. I walked into my room trying to find something to wear. I frowned at my closet realizing I wasn't the type of person to dress up. My wardrobe mostly consisted of flannels, band tees, oversized sweaters, and dark, ripped jeans.




I walked over into Grace's room hoping she had something that would fit. I found a red dress sitting on a shelf in her closet. I held it up eyeing the ruby dress. It was a bright red, strapless, with a zipper running up the front,tight-fitting dress. I decided why not, I'm already letting loose tonight. I wrapped it into a ball running to my room. I slipped into the bathroom and turned on the curling iron. I slowly pulled the dress over my head, looking at myself in the mirror once it was on. I never imagined myself like this. I started to feel insecure realizing there's going to be a bunch of other girls wearing shorter tighter dresses craving Harry's attention. I zipped up the zipper and started curling my hair. I then did the normal routine of mascara and eyeliner. I decided to switch out my pink lipstick for red. I walked out of the bathroom and tugged on my white converse. I'm not going to be totally fake tonight.




I grabbed my phone and walked downstairs sitting on the bottom step waiting for Harry. I heard foot steps walking down the wooden steps and I stood up. Harry stopped mid step and nearly fell down the stairs. His mouth so gapingly open.




"I know I look different but I don't look that different."




"Just come give me a kiss."




"Maybe later," I winked and walked through the front door. I sat in the passenger seat. Neither of us had a license but Harry could drive well enough to seem like he did. The car door slammed shut as Harry got in. He started up the car and drove away. The closer we got the faster my heart started to beat. I didn't want Harry to find someone else. I don't think my heart could handle that. Just as I was about to worry more I felt a large hand being placed on top of my hand giving it a reassuring squeeze.




Harry stopped the car and hoped out with me following. He opened the big door and I was greeted with the scent of alcohol and horny teenagers. I felt like my head was going to explode. I grabbed onto Harry's hand as we made our way through the crowd. I saw Niall and started to relax a bit. By the time we made it over to the rest of the boys I could tell Niall and Louis were high. Zayn was nowhere to be seen.




"You gotta try this man", Louis said as he handed Harry a blunt.




Harry looked me straight in the eyes and I could feel my stomach flipping. He looked a way and inhaled it, blowing out the smoke through his nose. He passed it back to Niall. Who then took his turn. I walked over to Liam not wanting to be apart of that.




"Are you alright love?"




"Just peachy," I replied as I pulled out a cigarette and lit it.




Liam and I just chatted for awhile. He was really nice and sweet. I felt like he could be my older brother. Liam and I were joking about one of his childhood memories when I saw Harry dancing with another girl. She was grinding on him and her boobs were practically falling out of her top for him. I got up mumbling a goodbye to Liam before making my way over to Niall.




"Do you have anymore weed?"




"Half a pack a day just isn't enough for you huh honey," he said with a smirk before handing me a blunt. I took it between my two fingers and took a drag pretending it was a cigarette. I blew the smoke out of my mouth. Moments later I felt my eyes starting to swim and I became a giggling mess. I ran over to Louis grabbing his hands and dragging him onto the dance floor.




-The Next Morning-




I woke up with a pounding in my head and rolled over onto my side. I felt another body laying next to me. I lifted the covers and was shocked to see it wasn't Harry.




"Niall what are you doing in my bed," I yelled.




"Don't you mean what are you doing in mine?"













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