You're So Cool

Chapter 18

So guys, it has been a while since i did some good writing. Now that Holidays are here I can finally finish the story. This isn't the last chapter so dont fret. Hope you enjoy this chapter and yeah give it a comment and a vote :) thanks

The next morning was chaos.

Yep I officially win worst person in the world award. 

We finally flew back to florida and Luke managed to avoid me the entire trip home and the remaining few days in America before it was time they had to hit up Australia. Ed has been so lenient with us girls, I told him everything that happened just to fill him in, plus the guy gives great advice no doubt about it. I knew things were only going to get harder as time pushed on. I only spoke to Niall once on the plane before Aysha, Katie and I had to get back to our own rehearsals. The media soon found out about us being ‘official’ as they say and it has been going crazy. Not saying that I am enjoying any of this. I feel awful. The poor guy has been messaging me non stop about how my day is going and how I am feeling.. I have had enough. I have never had someone ask me the same question more than once in one hour until now. He left me 7 voice messages last night and then 3 this morning that i still refuse to listen too. I have been putting off talking to him as it is going to make things worse for me. As you can probably tell... I am a mess. I honestly am the worst person alive. I wish I never met any of them. I want things how they were. When I was wild, young and ...free. Ever since Luke and then Jason and then Niall, its been a domino effect and its only been heading down hill for me. Aysha still remains mad at me and only speaks to me during rehearsals. God this girl can hold a grudge. Katie on the other hand is trying to help me clear my head. But I know there is only one person who can help me now.

“Hello Pauline speaking” My aunt said through the phone. “Hey Aunt P” I chirped into the phone. “Jo it’s so great to hear your voice... How are you hun” She replied. “Not good at all, just confused and tired of everything and just need a bit of advice” I blurted. “Is this the whole Niall thing?” What? How... of course.... Aysha. “Aysha told you everything didn’t she?” I sighed. “Now you really think i was going to let you go on tour without updates?” She giggled. “Ha Ha funny” I replied sarcastically. “But seriously Aunt P... I don’t know what to do anymore... I don’t know what I feel..” I began. Being in this situation sucks. “Well just ask yourself.... who do you love and care for most?” She asked. “I love Luke and I love Niall.... I can’t bring myself to choose” I responded. “Well.... what about this. Who makes you feel more alive?... Who makes you want to wake up every morning beside them?.... Who makes you feel like YOU” She questioned me. Damn she is good. There was silence on her end of the line. “Listen Jo. If you can clearly answer those questions. You have your guy. Now this wont be easy for you I know... but I hope you make the right choice for you.” I started to cry because I knew by the end of this... someone is going to get hurt. “Aw sweetheart. Jo I love you so much and i know you will make the right choice. Go with your heart not your mind. I have to get back to work but I will see you in 4 days. Love you” The hung up tone rang in my ear as i placed the phone beside me.

For the next 4 hours I pondered on those questions.

Who makes me feel more alive? 

Who makes me want to wake up every morning beside them?

Who makes me feel like me? 

“Jo” a little voice whispered as the door to my hotel room opened. “Hey Aysha... come on in” I gestured for her to come over and sit with me on the couch. “I’m sorry for everything Jo.. I shouldn’t have yelled at you and I can tell you are upset and being hard on yourself and you need a friend and i wasn’t there” She blabbered. “Woah Aysha breathe” I laughed stopping her before she ran out of air to breathe. “Sorry. But still, I should help not be a pain” She sighed. “Come here” I pulled her in for a hug, she immediately wrapped her arms around me. “You and Katie are my best friends and I love you both whether you are mad at me or not...... Joysha for life remember” I giggled as I brought up our bromance name that we came up with almost 7 years ago. “Ha Joysha forever!” She laughed. “Hey why don’t we go get some food” God this girl is always hungry. “Sure” I grabbed my hotel key and called Katie to meet us at the local Starbucks. Katie has been running around like crazy helping Ed do stuff and hang out with Ashton whenever possible.