Misleading Intentions - Jalex Highschool AU

Mr Gaskarth, You're Awake!

"Mr Gaskarth" I heard someone say along with those fucking beeps again and again, "What, can you turn those beeps off please" she giggled "No I'm sorry, they are keeping you alive, good to see your awake though Alexander" my turn to laugh at her comment "It's Alex" I bit back. She left the room contented that I was awake and breathing.


Fuck my head was pounding, my arm fucking hurt and so did my hips, really badly, bandages littered my body and I presumed cuts lay dormant under those pure hospital white bandages that get changed every hour, by an intern that was assigned to change the cutters bandages & as she does so tries to pity you, but thinks you are fucking crazy.


I hate hospitals and I hate Jack mother fucking Barakat.


Why? Was the question overlapping my brain and then wondered if my parents had texted me or called, I reached over to the chair where my cut up jean lay blood battered "They must have cut them to get them off me" I sighed the only good pair I had, I wore them to impress Jack secretly at school. Guess it turned out differently than expected.


I grabbed my phone, good condition still, apart from the crack running down the middle, I unlocked it, 75% power, "Shit that's pretty good" I saw the countless messages I had from Rian and my parents and a few from the school and even one from Zack, I checked them and replied how I felt socially acceptable.


I felt like I had a massive hangover, like I drank my weight in vodka and I broke both my hips or something. Fuck.


I was about to put down my phone when another buzz resounded through the empty pale room, the text read.


"I heard you were unsuccessful in killing yourself, shame! :)"


It was from Jack. My reply was just as sarcastic as his sounded to me.


"I know, sorry to disappoint you Jack, you should have killed the person who tried to save me :("


I laughed as I sent it, I felt weak and tired, so I placed my phone under my pillow and went about getting to sleep with all the wires in my hands and arms, idly touching my arm, feeling the scars, it was difficult to get to sleep in a brightly lit room, so I called for assistance. "Nurse, can I have some help please" she turned around "Yea hon what'd you need" she seemed nice enough "I can't sleep is there any way you could shut the blinds please nurse" she nodded and proceeded to do so, I thanked her and went to sleeping.


I woke up feeling a bit numb and better than was yesterday, checking my phone, I had one message from Jack, it read:


"Well I can't kill myself now can I, I can't go pulling a Gayskarth!"


I despised when people called me that, but Jack had just confessed he helped me out and into the ambulance. Fuck why was this kid being so nice and so shit at the same time!! I was so fucking confused and didn't know what to do about Jack.


I sent back a text saying:


"Why'd you help me Jack"


To which I got an instant reply to surprisingly I was expecting a reply next week.


"Because, you don't need to know why Gayskarth, I just did"


I nodded at the text, sort of smiling at the text, because he sounded cute, but I still hated the nickname Gayskarth.


"Okay Jack, well thankyou for helping me"


I typed out the reply and hit send, I deeply wished that Jack was here, I just wanted to talk to him, I know I shouldn't want too, but still, I do, I really do, and I know I shouldn't say this, but I have never felt shaky and tingly around anyone, female or male, like I have around Jack. I can't be In love with the enemy, but maybe I just am. "Fuck" I whispered as the darkness over took me and I fell into a beautiful sleep.


My parents hadn't visited yet, which surprised me a lot, I hadn't even gotten a text from them, I probably should text them now.


"Hey Ma, where are you?"


I was really hoping nothing bad had happened, but deep down, I sort of knew when I felt something that it was generally true.


"In Honolulu honey, with Jacks parents sealing an overseas deal"


I breathed out, thankfully, i was so glad that my parents were safe, I would fucking hate myself if anything would have happened to my parents. I decided not to bother them with this silly hospital shit.


"Okay Ma, when are you coming home"


I was hoping she would say more than 2 weeks, I wanted to be out of here and okay before she could see me.


"3 weeks honey, don't worry we aren't moving Lex, I thought I told you this on the note I left on the kitchen counter?"


Fuck. I hadn't been home yet, I needed my laptop and my bed so very badly. Because I was 18 legally, I could sign myself out when I was okay & go home on my own.


"Oh yea, sorry Ma, I'll see you in 3 weeks! P.S. I wasn't worried I know you would tell me! Love ya xx"


The replies continued with gestures of love and kissed, until I thought to myself, Jacks parents are out as well! Yes, wait why was I celebrating? I didn't know anymore.


A knock at the door interrupted my train of thought. I looked up, surprised as to the state of the boy standing in my doorway.


"Jack..."


A/N: I'm so sorry, this is so long ah, I'm so sorry ahahah, my ankle is better and I have a science assignment due and a maths test I know nothing about! Fucking yay so I have to study now, shit, anyway, wanted to do an update to thank you guys for reading!
Thankyou so much! :)


Steph Xx