Misleading Intentions - Jalex Highschool AU

Jack, How Do You Feel?

"Jack..." 

He looked like he had been crying, i didnt think HE would be the one crying, i had always imagined he would be the one coming to hospital to beat me up or make my pain worse, or even pull out the monitoring machines, i had a dream about that one night in here, and i wasnt in the mood for my dreams to come true. 

"Alex, look, the only reason i look like i have been crying is becasue i may be a bit high right now, but dont say anything, look, i wanted to say, yes it was me that helped you out into the ambulance and it wasnt a mistake, i cant be around you anymore Alex, i need some space, i need time to sort out how i really feel about you Lex"

He did look stoned, but i figured that was nothing new for him, his words cut me like the razor had done a few days ago, his words were like sugar and lemon, and i fucking hated him for it. The after he said "I need some space" that was the final straw for me. i was laughing through the entire of the last part of his speech which was rude of me, but he was being just a rude back. 

But he called me Lex. Fuck. I havent been called that by a guy in a long time, the last person was Ollie, that just got me more fired up. Shit i was too weak to hit him and too far gone to grab him. So my voice was the best plan. 

"Space Jack, space are you fucking serious, your the one who threatened me, your the one who saved me, your the one who told me to 'cut deeper' your the reason im in here, your the reason that i dont know how i feel about you, your the fucking reason i tried to kill myself the other day, so dont you fucking tell me about space, becasue Jack, all ive given you is space and i think its time you gave me space Jack" 

He nodded and walked out, yeah, pussy he was. 

i though about what he said and ended up searching around my room for something sharp, and to no avail i climbed back into bed and tried to sleep blocking out the fact that i would no longer be talking to Jack Barakat. 

I woke up to that fucking beeping noise again, jesus i wish it would stop. I looked around me, a nurse to my replacing some bandages and keeping me down softly feeling the alchocal sting on my skin, i hissed at the nurse who said "I know Alexand-" "Alex" i interupted her "Alex, i know it hurts, but dont speak to loudly otherwise you wil wake up your friend, you are well and good to go home now, heres the slip for your medication and your new therapy dates, You're strong Alex, you pulled through, and i dont want to see you back here for at least another 30 years" She smiled, and i smiled back waving her off and sighing softly, remembering someone was next to me, i looked over and "Jack, what the fuck" He stirred from his sleep. 

"Alex, thank fuck you are awake i was so worried about you, i saw the last time they bandaged you up when you were asleep and i saw your cuts and how deep you went, im sorry i did that you Lexy" 

I shot up ignoring the pain in my abdomen and pulsing through my head and back and managed to say "Jack are you serious, why are you here, you said you wanted space? you hate me, you told me to cut deeper, Jack, what the fuck dude? A sad look spread over his face, whilst a confused one was plastered on mine. "After Ollie and the gang found out i helped you they said they dont care about me anymore and i wasnt one of them" I nodded knowing thats exaclty like Ollie, dropping people like bananas in Mario Cart. "Uh.. Sorry you got kicked out of your special 'Make Alex's life hell gang' im sure you will be okay, i still dont know what you are doing here Jack, please tell me!" 

He nodded and explained the following: "Okay, after i left the bathroom when i just called you faggot-" Which time Jack" His face dropped, i knew it was a bad joke "Carry on" i said and he did "I felt sick to the stomach about what i said to you, lying to you from the beginning, smiling to you and knowing full well about your past and making you explain it to me, i felt so bad, i went back to apologise and spill my guts to you about everything i had done to that point, but i had left my phone in there as i had said, and i didnt see you when i walked back in, so i went for my phone, checked the message and it was from Ollie and he said "Hows the mission Jacky boy, is he almost destroyed" i didnt respond and thats when i told you to cut deeper, but i started feeling bad again so i came back and found you with a blade in your skin and called to teachers, to anyone for help to help you!, i didnt want to look at the cuts or anything it was so bad, i had tears in my eyes Alex, i felt so fucking bad, i wouldnt tell the people my name, so i went under Jacko instead and the press release had my face on it and it got back to Baltimore somehow and Ollie called me 2 hours ago saying i was off the mission"