Strangeness

Fake Assholes

Lots of triggers in this chapter, so feel free to skip it.
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Okay, so for the past couple months people have been saying that I'm 'dark', or 'emo', or 'goth', and I don't really get why. I mean yeah, most of the clothes I wear are black or dark blue, and the genre of music I listen to is generally classified as 'emo', but that doesn't really make someone 'goth', or whatever.
I am far from goth, trust me. I admit, my thinking process is probably on the darker side, but that doesn't mean that I only imagine murders and gruesome scenes. I do, in fact, think of happy things sometimes, but I'm pretty pessimistic, so I tend to think of the worse possible scenarios.
I will say, that I guess I'm kind of emo?? Like, when I think of the things I like, they're usually classified as emo, so I guess that makes me emo???
I dunno, let's just forget about that. Anyway, the reason I wrote this chapter was because I just watched an 'emo cringe' video, and I just got really mad at the people in the clips.
There were some idiots showing off self-harm scars, and complaining that their parents didn't want them to be 'emo'! What the actual fuck is wrong with you?! You don't just go around telling people that you fucking cut yourself and expect everyone to just act normal!! Any good parent would want there kids to stop hurting themselves, and if you tell them that being 'emo' means you cut yourself, then it's pretty fucking obvious that they'd want you to stop. I don't mean to offend anyone, but if you go around saying that you cut yourself, then there will be repercussions, and people will probably judge you in the worst possible manner.

To me, it just seems like these people are doing it for the attention, because if those cuts were a result of something actually traumatic that happened in life, then you wouldn't just show them to anyone. I know how deeply personal those scars are, and what kind of impact they have on people who did it because they thought they had no other choice.
I think it's dumb for anyone to hurt themselves for attention. If you want attention, just ask for it, just don't hurt yourself. Don't give yourself scars that will remind you of that bad part in your life every fucking day.
If you're going through anything in life and you want someone to talk to, feel free to hmu. I'm always here if you wanna talk, babes. I wanna help all of you in any way I can. I love all of you.
Okay, this concludes:
Deep Thoughts at 3:00 am, with Naza.