I don't know how, but somehow my phone is letting me write chapters on Wattpad despite not having service so woop-dee-fucking-do get ready for a whole shit load.
Okay let me fucking explain why I'm so pissed off.
My fucking older sister and her jackass boyfriend moved to Michigan. Its not that bad but the fucking thing is, is that they're still on our phone plan. And guess what they fucking didn't do?
They fucking didn't pay on their phone bill so now we have to suffer without phones.
It pisses me off because my phone is the only thing keeping me fucking sane and alive and I'm also in A LOT of rps on instagram so I fucking cant message back.
Who the fuck knows his long this is going to last? Sure as hell not me. I just want my goddamn phone back and actually be able to call people who help when I break down.
Normally when I break, I call people or message people to distract myself but now, I can't even so that. And yesterday I broke, was unable to call anyone for help, and did things I regret.
Not even ten minutes from when this is typed out, I broke again and still was unable to call or do anything about it and I can't fucking take it not being able to get help right now. I fucking need help and I can't get it because of my fucking sister and her stupid, trans/homophobic boyfriend and I'm fucking sick and tired of everything.
I just want to be able to talk to someone. Get help. Its only been two days but I feel myself slowly going insane because I can't talk to people I usually do on a daily, and they're the same people who help me when I'm about to snap.
Without them I would be dead by now. I wouldn't be here and I wouldn't be able to go on Wattpad anymore or talk to my friends. Hell, if I died, half of my internet friends wouldn't even know because I haven't told anyone about them. Nobody I'm rping with would know because I don't tell anyone about them.
I'm fucking pissed off and I feel another break down coming.
Someone.
Anyone.
Please help me.
I can't get help though. No one is here to help me or talk to me.
I'm done with my fucking sister. I'm fucking done with her boyfriend. I'm fucking done being the one who suffers because of someone else's fuck ups.
Update-My sister's boyfriend broke up with her. So now she's fucking basically stranded in Michigan, living with some homophobic jackass.
Can't really say I'm surprised.
