Once again half way through the night I woke up crying. Riker sat up beside me I wrapped my arms around his neck tears falling fast down my face. He pulled me in tight laying back down as he did so pulling me with him, the way I fell I was half on him and half on the bed. I fought back the tears and looked at Riker. "Why did you kiss me?" I asked searching his eyes for a clue as to what he would reply, "because I had be trying not to since we met and I couldn't hold back much longer" he leaned up and kidded my cheek, "then maybe my question should have been why can't anyone know?" I questioned him again, he sat up and I followed he turned to look at me, and took my hands in his "I've barley saved you from your mom and that awful man, if we got together and everyone knew I'd need to save you from the fans too, or the media, if they show you in anything we're in they might find you. And I want to keep you safe, I need to keep you safe" he spoke gently a tear fell from my eye but it wasn't like all the others that fell, I was happy. He caught it with his thumb and wiped it away, a smile grew on my face as our eyes met. I held his stare for a second before kissing him on the cheek and laying back down to go to sleep. I wasn't worthless, he wasn't embarrassed, or ashamed, he was protecting me.
"Morning sleepy head" riker kissed me on the head as I opened my eyes, I look up at him and smile. He jumps out of bed grabs his phone and comes back propping himself up with a pillow. "Look someone videoed you singing last night" Riker said shoving his phone in front of my face. I took it from him and watched, it was weird seeing myself sing, seeing Ross, Rydel, and Ratliff's reactions, they had never hears me sing before. But what caught my eye the most was Riker. He didn't take his eyes off me the whole time I was singing, he just watched me. "Do people like me?" I asked Riker handing him his phone back after it finished, "everyone is asking who you are, they want to know more now than they did before" he laughed "what are you going to tell them?" I look over at him. He types in his phone then looks at me, "how's that?" He asked once again handing me his phone. He had tweeted the video with the caption 'our new friend and tour buddy everyone meet little miss no name ;)' I laughed "telling them something but nothing at the same time you're a sly one Riker" I playfully pushed him. He over dramatised it and made himself fall out of bed landing on the floor with a thud.
About a minute later someone knocked the door Riker opened it and Rydel walked in "are you both okay? I heard a bang and came to make sure" she must have been right next door to of heard it. Riker sat back on the bed beside me "calm down she only pushed me out of bed" he laughed "no I pushed you a tiny bit and you threw yourself on the floor" I giggled. We both smiled at each other then look back at Rydel who was stood watching us, "okay what aren't you telling me?" She asked folding her arms "what are yoRill think its cute though!" She smiled and walked out the room closing the door behind her.
"I thought you didn't want to tell anyone?" I questioned him "Rydel is my best friend I tell her everything" he smiled "that's cute, its okay though its not like we're going out or anything, you just told her you like me" I rest my read on his shoulder "wait you're rite" he turned to face me "will you go on a date with me tonight?" He smiled at me, "I've never been on a date before" I laughed "that's not an answer" he put on a shocked face "ohh of course I will" I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed his cheek. For most of the day we lay cuddled up in bed talking about anything and everything. Riker told me more about his life and how he and the rest of R5 got where they are, its amazing how much they have done.
I leave Rydel's room her insisting on getting me ready for my 'date' with Riker, I walk to the next door down the hall and knock on the door. Riker opens the door and stares at me, looks me up and down for a minute. Rydel has straightened my usually naturally wavy/curly hair, and let me borrow a dress and shoes, when I looked in the mirror I didn't resemble myself much, she has put make up on me not a lot but I don't usually wear any. "Hey" he finally speaks "shall we go?" I nod and off we walk down the corridors of the hotel to the lift and out the front entrance. I have no idea where we are headed, or where we are, I'm totally trusting Riker he said he was going to plan something. We walk beside one another not talking. Nervousness? Awkwardness? I'm not sure. We soon arrive at doorway that leads to a small restaurant. He walk in first holding the door open for me to walk in, its not really busy but there is a few people sitting at some tables. None of witch recognise Riker. When I sit at our table I rest my hand on the table and to my surprise after the no contact or talking on the way here Riker brings his hand to meet mines and intertwined our fingers. I must admit it relaxes me a lot I smile at him. The conversation is steady flowing we don't run out of things to talk about. After out meal is finished Riker pays for it and we leave still in our relaxed mood laughing together on out walk hand in hand back to the hotel where we are met with the tour bus. Everyone els must already be on but before opening the door Rikers hand drops mines and he brings them both up to my cheeks, leaning in he kisses me softly "you look beautiful" he whispers I look down at my scarred arms I hadn't realised that everyone could have seen them until now. He must have noticed me looking at them. He takes my hand and lifts it to his mouth "every part of you is beautiful don't forget that" I smile at him and he kiss my cheek whispering "you're the best secrete I've ever had" I can't help but blush as we walk onto the bus.
