Accepting feelings (mindless Behavior BoyxBoy love story)

Chapter twenty two: Mental melt down

I just realized i deleted a chapter by mistake... And it was the most important chapter too.... Shit!!!..... Oh well!
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~ROC ROYALS POV:~

One week later....

Dressed in my black suit.... I sat in the back row with no emotion. i couldn't . I couldn't cry any longer, I felt all empty and alone inside. How could they? How could they all just walk in this church and pretend like every thing is all good? It's not all good, it's all bad! He's gone! HE IS GONE..... And he's never coming back! And They all wanna sit in a group and smile and be happy like this is a family reunion. This ain't no damn reunion. I mean doesn't miss Teresa have at least a little bit of sadness in her? Or is it just "Well at least we got his Ashes." in her head......

"Do you have anything you would like to say for the last time Chresanto?" Princetons Mother asked as her and Keisha looked at me smiling.

"Sure." I replied walking up to the front were the empty casket was.

I stood there for a wile admiring the way the sun shined down on my face. It was crazy because every time that happens.... Something impossible and wonderful happens, but i quckly shook off the feeling simply because today wasn't gonna be one of those days. In fact it was the exact opposite, as of right now it was the worse day of my life.... And Princeton wasn't even here to have a bad day with me. I don't think I'll live to see the end of this day.

"UmAmm" Ray cleared his throat snapping me out of my thoughts. I looked around to see that the few people who attended was staring at me waiting for me to speak.

"uhh...  Jacob was.... He was....., I can't do this."

Ray and prod jump up from their seats in the front row and attacked me with hugs.

"It's gonna be okay!" Prod told me.

"It's not!"

"Sure it will!" Ray said. I Shook my head in disagreement.  

"I'm sorry but no it won't, I have to go."

"Wait you can't go..... We'll never ever see him again."

"And if i stay we will? Bs Ray! I can't let go and i won't. He's out there."

"I don't feel it!"

"Of course you don't,  you're not a physic ! (Dnt know if i spell dat right) you're exactly right, you don't know shit!"

"Are we not in a church? He's my best friend too... I know what you're going threw!" Ray yelled in a whisper.

"He was more than just my friend and you know that!"

"Right, right..... He's the love of you're life and what you've been gay for like two months?"

"I've been gay forever..... My first boy crush? Yo punk ass!"

"Really?"

"yeah.... I'm sorry Ray."

"No. I'm sorry.... See I told you that this was making me insane."

"Apology accepted. Now.... I gotta go."

"Don't, i said i was sorry!"

"bye!" And with that i took off running as fast as i could.

I ran super fast down the road knocking over everything and everyone in front of me and I didn't have to turn around.... i knew Keisha, Ray, Prod, Kenneth, and Walter were all chasing after me.

I had to think fast, They must think I've gone crazy or something. they are not gonna put me in some mental institution, no! No!

I ran faster and faster turning every five seconds to make sure that they wasn't catching up.... They were... All five of them!

Man i swear, they not bout to put me in no mental institution. I-I guess this is it, i have to. If there isn't a Princeton and i, than there won't be an I.

As i was running quickly finding myself out of breath, i noticed a tall building, Not the tallest building in our city but not the shortest. It was always me and Princetons favorite building because it sorta kinda looks like a twin tower building and we had never been to one. Twice a year we would come hang out inside this building than afterwords we'd have a romantic-like picnic, ya know it's funny how we didn't realize that we liked each other back then. We had great times here.... That's why it's a perfect place to end my life.

When i was finally in front of the building i took a long look, sighed, than began to climb it.

Yeah.. Keisha was screaming and everyone else were cursing and panicking but i didn't care. I cleared.my head of all thoughts and stayed focus on not falling until i got to the top.

I almost slipped a couple of times as it began to rain lightly but yet i didn't fall.... After about ten minutes i got up to the top and right before i was about to jump i stopped myself.. I need at least a good five minutes. 

Five minutes later:

I could still see the crew down there panicking... They looked like little ants.

"Aw shit.. The police and the fucking ambulance." Great, just great!

I was trapped or was i? I could still jump.....

Yeah im definitely ready now.

1... 2....  .....

Just before i could jump something told me to turn around........

*Turns Around*

"Princeton?"

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A/N: my questions for you....

Isn't Roc crazed for climbing that building?

Is there someone actually on that building or is that just Roc loosing it?

Does Roc need to be placed in a mental institution?

Is Princeton alive?

What will happen next?