Undeniable Temptations

Part 2

The morning after Nathan decided to call it off I received nothing, but disgusting messages from him. Talking about my slut-ness and whore-ness or something like that between the lines. He claimed I was cheating on him with my brother's friends, but I never met Alden's friends which is ironic in my opinion. Overall I just blocked Nathan's number so I wouldn't have to read or hear about him. Even though I miss him like crazy despite what he did, I think we could use one of his off/on calls as a sign for us to take a break from each other for a while.
I opened up the white cabinet from the kitchen grabbing a granola bar. Alden was up in his room getting ready for his two-day event for some convention he wanted to attend or begged Maine to let him attend. Either way it meant Alden was leaving for two days and I would be home alone to relax and breathe from everything.
Memories began to flood my head causing an awful sharp pain to my head. Dropping my bar I squeezed my hands against my temples trying to smooth out the pain. It doesn't help much. Screaming voices and sounds of being tossed or slapped flood into my mind causing me to shut my eyes close. A weak voice began to scream and beg for help and the other voice kept screaming roughly at them, I didn't understand it. Softly I began to yell Stop it! Both of you stop it! My thoughts slowly broke feeling someone's hand on my shoulder, gripping them firmly. I jolted back in fear hugging my body. The voice ordered me to open my eyes and I do as the voice says. Opening my eyes wide I found Alden standing in front of me, his lips frowning and his brown eyes filled with worry. Without an hesitation I pulled him into a tight embrace as the voice began to fade away. I didn't realize I was crying until I saw the tear stains on his shirts.
"Baby Love, are you okay? Did you start to have bad memories coming back?" He mumbled softly due to my attack.
I nod slowly at him. Now I could feel my tears flooding down my cheek. He held me tightly again rubbing his hand on my back for comfort. I saw the hesitation in his eyes about leaving for two-days for his event which draws me away from his arms.
"Alden, go to the event." I said immediately.
"What?" He said confused.
"Go to your convention. I'll be okay with myself at home. I promise not to have anymore attacks. They just happen once in a while." Trying sound relax and sure of myself when I spoke. Honestly I felt like complete shit when I started even saying a single word.
"Kate, I don't want to go on this trip and find out you had another memory or panic attack. I would never forgive myself if that happened." His eyes never met mine. Instead he was staring at the floor pacing back and forth.
"Alden, when was the last time I had a panic attack?" Looking at him with a questioning facial expression.
"6 months ago. We were both laughing about something in my room and you hit your head on my headboard of my bed frame." He said confidently, knowing every detail like it happened yesterday.
"See! 6 months ago so I should be fine being here by myself for two days. Please go to your event because if you don't then I wouldn't be able to forgive myself for not letting you go."
Alden shrugs his shoulders giving in to my words. He knew I hated to make him feel guilty. Plus I just needed the extra space away from everyone. Space away from Nathan,Alden and Maine. I was sat at the living room when I heard the door jingle open. It was Maine because she was had habit to scream for Alden right when she entered the door. Slamming it shut behind her to emphasis her entrance.
"Your favorite sister in-law is here!" Maine teases as I approached her.
"You're my only sister in-law." Shooting her a puzzled look. She chuckled pulling me into her embrace.
"Hoy! You better behave yourself while we are out. If Nathan decides to bring his dumb ass back here you immediately call the police. I don't care if you love him. He deserves to rot in jail for what he is doing to you." Maine said firmly staring at my brown eyes.
"Yes, Ma'am!" Saluting her like I was one of her workers. "And when have I ever misbehaved? I don't even have friends except for Lauren who is inconveniently in Australia visiting her parents until the weekend." I groaned rolling my eyes at the thought.
"All true, but still please watch yourself. I want to come back knowing you were completely cable of being okay and happy."
I let out a sigh knowing Maine was doing this from the bottom on her heart. She didn't mean to sound annoying or overprotective. She just doesn't like seeing me into one of my depression mood or angry mood. It always gave her pain to see me helplessly struggle with it.
"Okay, let's go before we are late for our flight." Alden shouts climbing down the steps.
   After we moved past the whole kisses,hugs and behave/take of yourself speech, I watched Alden drive off with Maine to the airport. They didn't bother get anyone to drop them off since it was only a two day thing so they decided to leave the car in the parking lot for two days. I closed the door behind me locking it then quickly dial Chinese take out. Rummaging through a collection of old Disney movies that I loved when I was little and the Fast and Furious movie series. I decided to stick to the Lilo & Stitch Movie series.
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Consuming myself in Chinese food and Lilo & Stitch movies left me into a deep slumber. After all I was just eating away my feelings. I didn't really feel the need to go out any time soon. I was already feeling like crap and there was no point of facing the real world when the people I care about were all out of town. Alden already texted me saying his flight had landed in Vega and to expect video calls every 6-8 hours from him or Maine. Stretching my arms out towards my phone I glance at the time. It was already 7pm which drew my eyes wide. I've been asleep almost the whole day in this dark living room.
Getting onto my feet I stretched out my body. Feeling slightly nauseous and tired. Grabbing the soft blanket I bundled myself in, I folded it neatly and place it on the back of the couch. Cleaning up all the take out boxes and empty soda cans laying around. The movie was still playing in the background as I continued to tidy up the living room. Afterwards I headed to the bathroom taking a hot shower to relax my body then threw on a pair of sweatpants and tank top lounging by my desk. My laptop began to ring. Glancing at the time it has been 6 hours already so it must be Alden.
"Kate!" He smiles weakly at the camera, as the camera tried its fastest to connect us.
"Hi Alden." Pressing a grin to my lips.
"How are you doing?" He asked.
"I've been good. I just slept all day and watched movies. Don't worry I didn't think about killing myself or anything irrational." Answering the obvious elephant question in the room.
"Kate, I'm only doing this to make sure you're okay. Please don't make it harder for me. I'm sorry for always checking up on you." His voice guilty and shaking.
"I know. It's your job as my older brother. Blah blah blah. Anyways how are you guys?"
"We had an easy flight and got here on time for the opening of the convention. We should be back tomorrow late afternoon. I would've booked an earlier flight, but Maine wanted to stay and explore the city of Las Vegas a little more." He explains.
"It's fine, just bring me back a souvenir. Look I don't want to keep you guys from having fun so I'm just gonna sleep the rest of the day. Just text me when you're leaving for your flight and arrived back in New York." Running my hand through my hair anxiously.
"Okay, please behave. I love you and I want to come back seeing you in one piece." Alden teased.
"Ha. Funny." I said sarcastically. "Have a safe flight back home with Maine." I smirked before turning off the laptop.
I climbed back into bed unable to keep my eyes peeled open. The thought of Nathan calling it off with me was long gone. I could care less about him right now. All I knew was that I needed my space from him. He would keep my mind distracted from what was happening this week, but I didn't need him to distract me anymore. Besides I found a new way to keep my thoughts from going back to the horrible memory. It's called: SLEEP! I shut off the lights in my room and threw the covers over my head before falling into a deep slumber.
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