Alyssa Dan Valdez
Maganda siya. Yun lang masasabi ko. Maganda siya.
So nagagandahan ako sa ibang babae at pakiramdam ko hindi tama. Ganun na ba pag seryoso ka sa isang relasyon? Every time you look at someone, then if you think they are pretty, you would feel like you're not suppose to look at them like that.
Parang sa pag bili ng sapatos, may nakita kang maganda pero ayaw mong bilhin kasi hindi pa naman naluluma or nasisira yung isa, at feel mo mas matibay pa yung ginagamit mo kesa sa nakikita mong tinitinda nila.
Natamaan ako, oo. They never called me malandi or anything. I mean, Dennise never said that I am, but sa term niyang landiin parang sinabi niya rin na ganun ako.
I scratched my head. Nakatitig ako sa tubig habang naka nguso. I stared at myself, at napatanong kasalanan ko bang lapitin ako? Totoo naman kasi, wala naman akong ginagawa, kakausapin ko lang sila, ayun! Close na. Mabait lang naman kasi talaga ako xD.
I wasn't like this before, not until Dennise became my girlfriend. Pakiramdam ko'y isa siyang tuldok na nung marating ko ay nag umpisa ang kakaiba at bagong kabanata ng pag katao ko.
She seemed to be the reason why girls kept on getting closer and closer to me.
"It looks like a mirror, isn't it?" Asked Christina. I looked at her and smiled. "How are you?"
"Great." I murmured.
"You don't look happy."-Christina
"Should I be?"
She shrugged and plumped her bobble gum. "I think so?" Her right hand made it's way on my left shoulder. Gripping it tightly. "Your muscles are firm." She said half confused. "Can a girl have this kinds of muscles? It feels like a guy's!"
"Haha, of course! Girls can have those. Why? Don't you have muscles?" That was dumb, I think?
"Are you dumb? Of course I do have muscles. But it's different with yours."-Christina
"Yeah. You're too skinny, but not in a bad way."
Tumango siya. She sat beside me, hang her legs down. We were sitting on a branch of a tree, facing the beautiful sky line of Toronto. Her hands suddenly brushed on mine making me shiver and felt a cold sweat on my nape.
"You look tense."-Christina
"Because you're too close." I said honestly. "Im not complaining, and Im not saying that I feel uncomfortable."
"You don't need to explain. I know it's irritating." She chuckled.
I looked at her. I felt guilty all of a sudden. She was looking straight at the sky line. And it's not a good thing. Her smiles never left her lips. I know those gestures, too much happiness is something you shouldn't believe.
Christina Croft. A girl whom I thought clingy, showy, talkative, non-innocent, and bitchy-sassy was totally the opposite of what I thought she is. We have the same age, but it's crazy how she thinks like Dennise.
"Why are you wearing clothes like that?"
She snapped her head on my direction. "Why? Did you judge me on my clothes?" I nodded. "Hahaha! It's a mask!" She whispered with a grin.
"Plus you are acting like a bitch."
"But I am not."-Christina
"I know. What I thought was totally wrong."
Natawa siya. Pero ako napasimangot. Nag iwas ako ng tingin sakanya. Her laughter sounded as if she was hurt. Of course she was, ikaw ang ijudge ng isang tao in your first ever introduction. That's fucked up.
