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Bitter Jam III

Bitter Jam III

Capital must be propelled by self interest; it cannot enticed by benevolence.
-Walter Bagehot

There are two levers to set a man in motion, fear and self-interest.
-Napoleon Bonaparte

Two things awe me most, the starry sky above and the moral law within me.
-Immanuel Kant

-Brix-

        These lines paikot ikot sila sa aking isipan. Between my personal needs and morality, alam ko sa sarili ko ang sagot. Alam ko kung ano ang mas matimbang. Alam ko kung ano ang tama.

            At isa pa I love Janelle... No question about that! She's the perfect girl who can stand beside me but then ~ naikuyom ko ng mahigpit ang dalawang kamao habang nakatingin kay Jean. 

           Like always she's wearing a short skimpy outfit.

           Sleeveless blouse na kulang na lang lumuwa ang dibdib at micro mini na nagpapakita sa makinis nyang hita.

           Matingkad ang pagkapula ng kaniyang buhok mula sa tama ng liwanag na nanggagaling sa buwan.

          -"I've been waiting for you..." She said. Bumaba ito mula sa kinauupuang malaking bato at ngumiti. "Nasan na ang 'It won't happen' na sinasabi mo. Akala ko ba seryoso ka sa kapatid ko? So... ano ang ginagawa mo dito?"

           Pinakaswal ko ang mukha. "Don't get me wrong chineck ko lang kung nandito ka since delikado para sa isang babae ang mag isa lalo na at gabi." Even to myself it sounds absurd! FVCK! That is the lamest excuse I have ever heard in my entire life. "At isa pa na sa'yo ang Memory Card. Let's put it like this kung ikaw ang hostage taker and I am the police hindi ako gagawa ng isang bagay na pwede mong ika-upset. You are blackmailing me remember?" Sabi ko in a very convincing tone.

           I said those lines with the intentions na ipasa sa kaniya ang lahat ng kasalanan plus to also point out na wala akong choice kundi sundin ang kapritso nya.

          -"Are you sure kaya ka nandito ay dahil bina-blackmail lang kita?"

           My face turned red. BULLSH!T! Kahit siguro tutukan ka ng baril Brix lagi kang may mahahanap na paraan to free yourself from her trap ...but you never do so.

            Why?

            Because you want to fvck her! You want a taste of her! You want to use her! You want to experience s3x! YOU ARE LUSTING AFTER HER!