Living Without Her (Suga x Reader)

Chapter Four

Yoongi's POV

Finally, and I mean FINALLY, (y/n) has left me alone. It's been a long day and when it reached moon rise, she was satisfied with my stay out of the house and decided it was finally okay for me to go home. Being pretty good at pretending, I convinced (y/n) that I was okay so she wouldn't have to stay with me. I didn't want company and I surely didn't want her worrying about me.

After thinking about (Y/n) and how she somewhat made me feel better today brought me back to think about Ah Young. Suddenly, today became a very sad memory. How I missed Ah Young, and her laugh... her silly jokes... her happiness was my happiness until she took that from me.

I turned my head to see a picture of me and Ah Young sitting together, her cutely kissing my cheek as I showed my long lost smile. 

"I'll never leave you, oppa!!" Her words echoed deep in my head.

"Psh... Liar," I remarked to myself out of anger.

I went to the bathroom and washed my face. I looked in the mirror when I finished and saw my pale, skinny, sad face. It was a disgusting sight. No wonder she left me, I thought, I'm disgusting.

Memories continued to flash through my brain as I lay in bed, making crying unbearable. My pillow soaked in my tears and sheets wrinkled from my pounding fists. I sobbed all night until I had no more tears to shed. All I could do was feel angry and sorry for myself for just letting her go. I can't breathe without her, can't think, can't function. and most of all I can't Live without her. And that was it. It was decided.

I got up and made my way back to the bathroom and opened up my medicine cabinet. I grabbed a full bottle of pain killers and heaved a heavy sigh. Quickly I filled my mouth with at least half the bottle and swallowed them with the sink water. Before I knew it, I blacked out in the bathroom.