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+in mari's pov

Time is running out. I am going to die.

When John comes into my room, I tell myself that I will tell him my feelings.

And I will.

"I need to tell you something," I say.

He nods.

I ask him to come closer, and closer, and he looks worried, and I know I'm not thinking because instead of saying 'I love you' I kiss him.

But then he kisses me back so I don't care that I didn't mean to.

And then I pull away, coughing.

He gasps, and I look down to see that I coughed out blood.

And then I realize that I don't have much time left.

Panic strikes. "I love you," I say quickly, but I don't think he heard because then nurses and doctors are coming inside my room and telling John to go away. I want to tell them to stop but everything just hurts so much and I can't talk.

My chest is hurting and my vision is blurring and then I see black spots and everything just hurts so much more and then I can't see anything but then I see my mother and I take her hand which is stretched towards me. She pulls me away and then I see all the doctors trying to bring me back to life but they can't because I'm already gone.

I follow my mother away.

And I don't look back.