Soundtrack Of Our Lifes (A Jacksepticeye Fanfiction)

Let you down

Song is Let you down from Three Days Grace.

Enjoy!

This is the first time I tried a Chapter put of Seans mind. If anyone doesn't like it that way, I am sorry but that's the way I think he is.

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Seans POV

Oh how she drives me insane. Her eyes filled with fright. Why, oh why, can all people treat her like shit and she accepts it? And now she is afraid of me? My head spins, I drank way too much. For a moment I am tempted to give her what she needs, to hit her. But instead I hit the wall. The pain makes me think a little bit more straight. The noise from the party is booming loud here. The music makes me raging more. I don't know what to do. I want her so badly, want her to be happy. I want to save her, that was my biggest goal all along. And she just seems like she's happy with drowning in her own sick world.

'Fuck this!' I yell, turning my back at her and race out of the room, leaving her there. I really have to calm down, otherwise I may get so mad I'll hit her.
I need to find Mark. Mark would know what to do. I find him making out with a girl I don't know. I don't care, I just grab his arm and drag him with me.

'Whoa hey, I was getting her, Jack!' Mark complaints while I drag him into the basement where his fitness room is. I close the door behind us and start to yell.

'I can't stand this! She's hell of a devil sometimes! Why can't I save her Mark? She's driving me crazy! Why does she need to be like that? She was afraid of me. OF ME! She thinks she needs to be punished, that it's the normal behaviour! And I can't do it! I fucking can't! Holy Shit I want to fuck her back to sense, to show her what it could be. But she won't even let me touch her! I'm so frustrated! I try to be nice but she is crumbling my will!' I am out of breath after that. I lean myself to the wall and rub my forehead.

'Geez, buddy. Never seen you so mad before. You want her, good. She's making trouble, no good. Want to leave her?' Mark pats on my shoulder and looks at me.

'No. I love her way to much. But her suffering makes me feel things I don't want to feel.' I lift my head looking at him. The alcohol in my veins makes makes me somehow numb, but my emotions are so much stronger than sober.

'You two are surely a pack full. You know what I would do? I would go up and give her a bit of what she needs. Don't hit her, don't mean that. But I thought you are the boss, aren't you? Maybe you show her that she's save with you even if you boss her out.' Mark winks at me. I know what he means instantly.

'Oh. Maybe.' I nod slowly, thinking hard. 'Thanks, man. Have fun with that girl.' I say as I make my way back to our room. She 's lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling. I jump on the bed and crash on top of her. Without speaking a word I press my lips to hers, putting all my rage in this kiss. And she's so willing to kiss me back. It makes my heart twirl. I don't want to talk now. I bite her in the lip and then trace down her throat.

'Sean... what..' but I cut her off with another kiss. Every time I leave her lips she starts talking again and I cut her off. That is driving me mad again. Eventually she shuts up. Finally. I'll make her never forget about this. She wants a boss, she get the bossiest boss that has ever bossed.