I'm Horany (Niall Horan Fanfiction)

Chapter 20

A/N I'll explain my lateness at the end, so sorry.

Chapter 20

"It's you or him."

"W-what?" I choke out.

My expectation of Russell's reaction was to shout or threaten me, when he did the complete opposite, it shocked me - he laughed. I stand, completely lost at his amusement.

"I just wanted to scare you one last time before I tell you what I want to talk to you about." He breathes when he's finished laughing.

"What?... I'm pretty confused over here," I mutter.

"Maya, I'm not trying to hurt you or to go after that Niall guy. Look, back at the café, that was my real last attempt to scare you before I came out with... the truth. What Niall did, I totally deserved. Can I please just talk to you normally now?"

Shocked is a very bad understatement of what I am right now. Somebody pinch me, seriously.

"Before we even start, may I just say; bullshit!" I scoff. Russell's face drops, was he actually expecting me to go along with this?

"No, seriously," He murmurs.

"I'm going to leave."

"Maya, please!" He's off his feet in a matter of seconds, standing between the door and I. "Do you really think that if I was going to do harm to you that I probably already would have done it by now?"

"Russell, you stole a goddamn car, and you're only out of jail, I don't know what goes through that crazy, disturbed mind of yours."

"Hey! Insults are uncalled for!" He whines. "Just let me explain everything, there's even an apology in there too." He grins.

Fuck... what should I do?

If I go I'll never get an explanation, but if I stay anything could happen.

Ah crap, I guess I'm going to have to stay.

"Fine," I sigh. "Enlighten me."

"I think you should sit down first though,"

"OK..."

Sitting down on the horrible, old sofa was a big step for me, it's disgusting really.

"I don't even know where to start," He chuckles.

"Well you better hurry up and get it started because someone's going to notice that I'm gone, someone like Emily."

"Awh I remember her... kind of. Anyway, Maya as you know, back before I went to jail I was fairly fucked up, for reasons that I don't want to go into, but I've brought you here today to say that during those six years behind bars I've had a lot of time to think, and I was beginning to get a healthy mind. I thought about why I was there, in jail, I completely deserved to be. I was waiting all these years to just come out and apologise to you and Mum, but obviously she's not here so I'm just saying it to you,

Maya, from the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry for every bad thing I ever did. I really hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. You most likely won't and that's understandable, just know that I'm sorry, little sis."

My hand is in the air before I even know what's going on and striking Russell right on the cheek, very hard.

"I-wha-how-why-" It's even hard for me to put a proper sentence together.

"Ow!" He covers up the crimson coloured hand print that I had left on his face.

"I don't believe you," I whisper, barely audible.