A Broken Hearted Smile

part 14

Harry's point of view

two weeks later and I'm back on tour. my plane touches down in Australia, and I breathe in the hot air. I pull my phone out, make sure no one has called me, and walk towards my rental car.

my phone starts buzzing the minute I sit down. damn it. I struggle and grunt to pull it out, but almost drop it when I see her face shining up at me. the picture is so beautiful, Carmen's dark eyes radiate as she watches a small baby walk by. her own baby bump sticks out, and I swallow the lump rising in my throat. I miss her.

I answer with a shaky voice. "h-hello?" heat rises to my cheeks. stop, Harry. you aren't dating her.

"Harry, oh my god. I need your help. Adrianne is having breathing problems and I can't drive. please help me." her voice shakes. "I tried to call anyone else but they wouldn't answer. you're the only person I have. please Harry."

my heart shatters for her. it's hard to lose someone you love, I think I would know the feeling. shit. it takes me thirty minutes to get back to London.

"I'm calling for help okay? help her as much as you can. I'll be there in thirty minutes, but I'm calling someone else to help you." I hang up and swiftly call Mum.

"hey sweetheart-"

"Mum, listen to me. Carmen is at her house with her new baby and she's having trouble breathing. I just touched down in Australia so it's going to take me some time to get back. please go to her apartment and help her get Adrianne to the hospital." I say in one huge rush.

"I'm on my way." I hear Mum's car door slam, and I hang up.

I need to get on the next plane going home.

~~

I'm placed right back on the same plane I came on. I nervously chew on my fingernails as we pass over the world in a rush.

we land, and I quickly grab my bag and run for my car. I call Carmen.

"where are you? I just touched down in London. I'm coming." my heart stars racing at the thought of seeing her again.

"we just reached the hospital here in town. please hurry, I'm scared." her voice cracks through her tears.

"I'll be there in five minutes, my love." I slam the gas pedal to the floorboard, and drive my way to my future.

~~

I pull into the hospital's parking lot, and jog inside. the lady at the front desk smiles politely. "who are you here to see?"

"uh.. Carmen. her daughter is having some issues breathing." the lady nods, and points upward.

"second floor, room 235." I nod, and run quickly to the stairs. I take them two at at time and run for room 235.

my heart starts pounding when I see her. she has her head in her hands, and she's shaking. my heart shatters.

"Carmen?" I say quietly. her head snaps up, and she nods. "how's she doing?"

Carmen sniffs before talking. "she's doing okay, but they're going to keep her here for a few days just to make sure her heart is working like it should be."

I nod, and take the seat beside the girl I really love. I reach for her hand, but she yanks away.

"what are you doing?" Carmen's eyes go dark. "I'm not going to date you, Harry. that's in the past. I just needed someone's help."

my heart feels like it's just been stabbed twenty times. "w-what?"

"you're the one that walked out on me, Harry. I didn't walk out on you. I begged you to stay; I called you for weeks. I cried and I cried over you. but you didn't care. you're so big and famous that you can have anyone you want to have. well guess what? you're not going to have me. I am an ordinary girl, and you're just a pop star. you want the famous girls that get photographed every day of their life. I'm not one of them, Harry. I'm not just another girl that you can toy around with. I have feelings; unlike other stars you've dated who are with a different guy every night. I love you, I do. but this will never work out between us."

my head is spinning as I stand up. I came all of this way to win her heart over, and she won't let me in.

tears stream down my face as I walk into the bathroom. vile rises in my throat, and I puke up the remainder of my breakfast.

I lost her.