Falling for Henry.

Being apart hurts hearts

It took a lot of doing but I was able to get myself moved out of being his bodyguard, I am now just one of his Knights so I am still in the Kings service but I don't have to be around him all the time...he is cold towards me now...he acts like I am invisible.

I have to remind myself why I did this..

1: he is married and going to be a father to Queen Blood Mary soon then to the 'virgin' Queen Elizabeth soon.

2: he is crazy and will kill many.

3:....I love him and don't wish to get my heart broken.

It is late evening so I go to a pub with some other Knights, it has taken a lot to prove myself to them and for them to accept a woman as a fellow Knight and shit.

The pub is lively as some guys are playing music and bar-maids are serving beer and women are sitting on men's laps and there is a lot of ugly teeth.

We sit at a table and order some ale. John and Luke and Jack are all eyeing some women when John with his brown eyes and blonde hair looks over at me with a smile.

"So Fox do you see anyone you like?" He says.

"Not really."

"Are you sure maybe a nice Lad? Or maybe you prefer a nice Lassie?" His question throws me off since I didn't think that in the 1500's a woman being a lesbian was even dreamed of.

"And I imagine you would want to join in."

"There are men the prefer other men so why wouldn't a woman want some beautiful Lassie to walk her way."

"You are ahead of your time Johnny"

We sit drinking ale and talking and telling stories, even though my body is here my heart is with Henry....I wish I would have stayed with him but how could I.....he will not live forever and as far as I know I will....

"Fox! Are you listening." Luke says pointing my head.

"I'm sorry what?" I say looking at them.

"We asked why did you leave being the Kings personal guard?" Jack asks me.
I sit thinking of what to say, I don't think I should say because I love him and I don't want to lie but I have to to survive.

"I found him to be too annoying to watch with all his womanizing..it felt too much like babysitting.." I have a feeling I am gonna regret this.

They all burst out laughing...they are probably too drunk to remember this conversation so I roll my eyes as I stand up to leave they all start asking be to stay though broken laughter but I just say I am done drinking for the night and head back to the castle grounds.

It's dark I see a light up in Henry's window so I walk by a tree to look up at his window hoping to see him, I think about how normally it's the man doing this kind of thing.

I look up and see him leaning against the window frame looking at the bunkers where I sleep....I wonder if he misses me...his red-ish gold locks is being highlighted by the moon...his blue eyes seem bluer with moon light bathing them...he is handsome beyond words my soul is screaming for his soul...

He looks my way, I wonder if his can see me by the tree?....he closes the window then walks away where I no longer see him, about 10 minutes later the lighting in his room is gone...it's dark he must have gone to bed I think...something in me makes me stay I don't want to move I just stand there looking at his window hoping he would stand by it again...

"Are you spying on the King!?!" A angry voice says from behind me.

"No." I say not turning around.

"Then state your business!"

"I don't have to state anything, you asshole."

"Is that how you talk to your king?" The voice says now sounding like Henry.
I turn and there is Henry with a smirk on his face.

"You knew it was me?" I say surprised.

"Of course I knew."

"I thought you went to sleep."

"No, I have been waiting for you to show up out here for 2 months now."

"You have?"

"Yes...every night I stand at that window waiting for you."

"Why?"

"I love you Keegan."

"Henry....I...I..lov.....I have to go." I say running away leaving him there.. I couldn't even tell him that I love him...