Sin of Love || Jungkook

T W E L V E

Finally the night Yongin have been waiting for ever since told has arrived. It felt surreal for her. The cheers and screams of the audience left her spellbound. As excited she was, the agitation caged inside her was inevitable. Yongin knows that she has many fans even though she hasn't officially debuted, but that's all she heard and saw from social networking sites, witnessing it in backstage from your naked eye feels entirely different. It was finally her turn, her turn to go up the stage and put all she has learned to action. To give her 100%. To show people that she's worth the debut and for her lovable fans. 

 After 35 minutes, Yongin walked out of the stage looking pleased and contented with her performance. "I've never felt this blissful, it was completely lit" muttered Yongin. While her wait in backstage for BTS to finish with the concert, one of the staff member in company came up and said "Congratulations Yongin. You did not disappoint us. All you've learned for years has been proven. All the efforts we made and you made ain't wasted. Today, you've proved that you're worth the debut and that you're completely ready for it. When you were performing, the crowd seemed to enjoy it so well, it almost felt like it was your concert and not BTS, you've gotten the art of an artist. You'll go far. All the best for future as an idol, Yongin. I'll patiently wait for your debut. Fighting!". Those words out of the staff's mouth felt like words of pure bliss to her. It's as if she had been waiting all her life to hear those words. "It's indeed the best night of my life, more to come, I bet" said Yongin to herself. All she wanted for the moment was to hug Kookie and share the happiness together. 

BTS finally walked out of the stage to the backstage when she saw Kookie and ran to him. He said "I'm proud of you, Yongin-ah. Your performance was my favorite, you looked so fierce and hot" ended with a smug smile on his face causing Yongin to blush like her entire life depended on it. Other members also congratulated her for her triumph. In complete moment of happiness, she also remembered her parents and thanked them for the continuous effort they made when they were still alive, tears formed her eyes proving how much she misses them. It was unexplainable and unavoidable. Kookie noticed the tears forming and easily acknowledged that she was missing her parents, as usual, he went to her and comforted her. Yongin asked Kookie if he's gonna accompany her to the funeral for her parents coming death anniversary in five days. "Is that even something to ask? I even told you earlier, I'll go with you. I don't want you to go there alone. We'll go together ok?" Kookie said. The reply made Yongin smile inside realizing how much he cares about her. If it wasn't for Jungkook, Yongin wouldn't have been able to be this happy after her parents left. She used to be a walking dead. Never talked to people, isolated herself and kept herself lonely, always, until Jungkook walked into her life and completely changed her, it was like he gave her a new life. A new character that she needed to abide by. Words won't really enough to describe how thankful and contented she was to have him. Words won't just suffice. It was a lot more than words could afford. Yongin's phone buzzed insistently, interrupting their lovely moment together. "I'll get that." She says before walking towards the phone which was on a table near the door. 

Unknown: You looked extra cool on stage tonight. I watched you. 

It was a text from the stalker again. She looked around cautiously and thanked when everyone was busy in their own world. Jungkook lost in the television because iron man, Jimin and Jhope were talking, Rapmon and Jin were busy taking selca's while Yoongi was just staring at his phone, looking like he could pass out at any moment. 

Jiminie: Jimin, can we talk. come out to the hallway. 

She texted Jimin not to make anything obvious for others and went out."What is it?" Jimin asked Yongin as he excused himself out. She didn't say anything and just shoved her phone at him. 

"so.. he came to watch this concert? he or she I mean." Jimin spoke after a brief moment of silence and Yongin hummed in response. She no longer feels scared when she receives texts from the unknown, instead she feels angry and weird being watched all the freaking time. "Who could it be?" Jimin asked, knitting his eyebrows and Yongin just gave him a stare which said. 'how would I know?'. Just ignore, ignore forever. This nut head will show up one day." Jimin said and Yongin nods her head as 'yes'. 

They were about to go inside when Jin opened the door. "Oh you were here? We were looking for you since the food arrived. Let's go eaaaaat~" Jin said merrily and they both followed him inside. This felt like a long day filled with mixed emotions and feeling to her but at the end, it still got better. 

.+.+.+.+.+.

 Yongin's parents death anniversary, It was the day for her to visit funeral. She can't help but get reminded of her parents continuously which just made her cry hysterically. All the members of BTS came to console Yongin and it helped for sure. They made her laugh despite the obvious tears, with their stupid yet cute actions. 

She finally got into the car with Jungkook and Manager to leave to the funeral. During the drive, it was completely quiet. The atmosphere felt weird but Jungkook held Yongin's hand throughout assuring that he's always there. As soon as she arrived the funeral, all tears she held in during the drive burst. It all started coming out. She cried holding onto the grave. She couldn't help it. It was inevitable. Jungkook's continuous effort to console and comfort her was not helping either. It's a moment where nothing will help. It's the best for her to let it all out and she knew it. She was doing the right thing. Yongin talked to the grave as if her parents were present. "Mom, dad, Finally I got to perform on a stage in front of a large crowd. You guys watched me perform right? I was really cool right? They said that I am going to debut soon" This might not make sense to others but for her it meant a lot. It gave her instant happiness just thinking that they were actually present and she is telling them everything. She promised to them "I'll come to you when I debut. Mom and Dad, you'll be the first I visit after my debut with my debut album. I'll debut and I'll make you both proud. I'll be a daughter you'll be proud of". those words gave her satisfaction and another motive to continue her life but it also made the Manager and Jungkook eyes to form tears. 

As time passed by, it was time for them to leave the funeral. Yongin wished to stay longer near her parents, but it wasn't possible as she had a packed schedule and a curfew. With Manager's final words to leave, she followed it and got into the car. She kept staring at their grave till the vision became blur. Yongin got motivated to debut, she knew that she needed final touches in practice and she knew the best the areas she needed to improve. Nothing was gonna stop her now. She might as well kill someone who's gonna come in her way to debut because for her, that's what she wanted the most now. Yongin is passionate about it and ready to give all of her for the debut. It was more about the promise to her parents then everything else. She needed to fulfill it. She wanted to take the debut album with her the next time she visits them and she'll make sure that it happens in any cost. 

"Are you okay?" Jungkook asked, taking her in his embrace. Yongin hummed in response, returning the embrace more tightly. 

 "I Love you Jungkook" 

"More baby."  

a/n: OML, I AM REALLY SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME. BUT HERE'S THE UPDATE. PLEASE ENJOY. I WAS HAVING EXAMS SO I COULDN'T UPDATE. I AM REALLY SORRY. I WILL TRY MY BEST TO UPDATE MORE FREQUENTLY. ILYSM <3 HOPE YOU'LL LIKE THIS. Also, sorry for any spelling and grammar errors. Have a good day~ ^^