To love,or not to love

The "welcome back" celebration

[Someones POV]

I cant wait to go home.... to find the one i love the most dearest...

I fondled with my hands as i waited for the limo to arrive to pick me up from the airport.

I cant wait to see her expression when i appear with all this props.

i cant wait ......

[Eunji's POV]

"ACHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!" I sneezed while i was trying to pack my bag to go to school. I wonder who is talking about me.

The wind today was quite cold considering how long i had been isolating myself in the house for over a month. Many people rushing to go to work and school. Probably by the time i enter the school, Mr Kai will like kill me for not attending school. Well its a waste of time explaining to him the reason why i have not been attending school anyway.

The problem now is how i will be copping with my studies while i recover from the tragedy. I never felt this troubled like this in my entire life. Its like i have been maturing every second things start to happen. I know this may sound weird but i dont know what to do now.

What if something even bigger happens to me? Will it add another stone on shoulder or be washed away from my mind? Things are already cramping my mind, crap. i should just forget about it and just focus on whats in front of me, school. Oh fish sticks !

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"Alright class , please remember to finish your homework and hand it up next week or you will go straight to detention . Got that , especially you, Miss Jeong Eunji." Mr Kai said while packing his stuff.

Well that was a long day in school. I walk pass the classroom and finally came to a stop when i heard someone playing the piano. I peeked through the small window on the sliding door and was surprise on how beautiful the girl is. Her voice is wonderful. It feels like all my worries had disappeared.

The song smoothly played while the wind slowly swayed softly. I sat in front of the door to listen to the song until end. But soon the song became despair. It was filled with pain and sadness from the way she played at the middle of the song.

I stood up where i was from. i looked at her in shock. The girls' eyes were flowing with tears and her fingers from the looks of it were trembling as if in fear. The girl saw me and hurriedly wiped away her tears and opened the sliding door to find her running away. I entered the music room and as i walked pass the piano i saw a handbook. I opened it and noticed it was the girls' handbook. So her name is Yookyung huh.

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It was turning dark so i hurried home.
I opened the door to my apartment. The creaking sound of the door always caught me in fear. The usual apartment was silent as ever considering that i live alone.

But today was different. The apartment was lit up fully. Did i forget to off the light when going to school ? I didn't right?

I went straight to my bedroom to get changed. The room turned dark all of a sudden. I can sense that there is someone in this room right now. A hand grabbed my wrist and pinned me to the wall. The lights turned back on and now the person in front of me is visibly seen. To my horror, the person in front of me kissed me on the lips. The person is very tall and had a bald head, well not that bald he still has hair. I tried to remove him from me by shaking myself but to avail. I screamed my lungs out for help. Who is this person anyway! 

The person then finally spoke. He lifted up his face and i was shocked to see my old childhood friend in my room. "YOU PERVERT!!! GET OUT OF MY ROOM NOW!!!!" I screamed at him. After i changed into my comfortable clothes, i went to the living room. How long has been since i last seen my childhood friend you ask? Well if i can remember correctly, it has been several years now since i last saw him. He was busy with his family's hospital all the time until one day, they had to move. It felt very lonely when he wasn't around. Since i live alone when i was young too, it also felt like there was a piece of my heart missing. Well now that he's here, i feel quite relieve now. " yah! where have you been all this time. i missed yoou, you know. Kris, are your parents okay? Are you still helping in that hospital of yours? Answer me already!!!" i shouted at him. Afterwords, silence filled the air. 

I repeatedly asked him the same questions until he broke. " IM TAKING OVER THE HOSPITAL OKAY!!! SO STOP ASKING ME QUESTIONS ALL OVER AGAIN!!!" Kris broke. I stood there with my mouth open and at the same time my hands started to tremble. So he came here to tell me this instead and not to celebrate his welcome back home. This is kind of cruel. At this time of day too. We finally get to reunite once again after several years and this is what i get after all the lonelinest i felt when i was young. I could not cope with any of this anymore. Things are just getting complicated every single time.  I could not think anymore and pushed Kris out of the door. I know its not his fault but there's this part of me telling me to kick him out. Its too painful for me. 

Knocking can be heard outside the door. I sat down on the floor feeling depressed at the situations that had been going on. Why does things have to happen to me! I give up on life. Soon the knocking stopped and the sense of depression hung in the air of the apartment. Will this EVER end?

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woooshhhhhh! woohoo! 

yaay ive updated this depressing chapter today!! Hope you like it and satisfy your baekji, chanji, krisji feels. well i hope you will wait for the next chapter. good day to all of you shippers.

P.S 

      i dont even know if krisji exist tho. oh well, might as well