Dan Howell Imagines

he sees your scars

*TRIGGER WARNING*

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It was just like any other day as you heard the bell that signaled the ending of another school day. You dreaded to come home.

You ran to the bathroom noticing your eyeliner was running down your face as you let a tear flow. You looked at your legs and rubbed the long cut that ran from your knee to your mid thigh.

How could he do that. How could he not care what had appeared on your skin. What was the reason?

You headed out of the bathroom covering your face and pulling down your pant leg. People stared.

You ran towards the exit and walked as slow as possible toward your house. Nice on the outside, hell on the inside.

Footsteps loudly approached you from behind. "Y/N! Wait up!" It was your one and only life long best friend, Julia. You hugged her tightly. "I got you something!"

Shocked, you asked what it was. "A new pair of headphones!" She replied. "Really! Thank you so much I have been wanting a new pair for so long. Love you!" You replied.

Julia had to catch her bus so you plugged in the brand new speakers. THEY WERE SO GOOD. You automatically started to play You Make Me Sick by Of Mice & Men.

It took about 3 more minutes to walk to your house so you continued listening till you arrived at the front door. A bad vibe spread across you.

You opened the door up and nobody was visible. Not your mom, stepdad, or even your dog.

"TAKE YOUR WORTHLESS CRAP AND JUST LEAVE ME! YOUR DEAD TO ME!" You heard from upstairs. It was your mom screaming.

She ran down the stairs sobbing. Your stepdad cursed loudly. He followed downstairs and pushed you out of his way which slammed you into the front door.

You ran up to your room and grabbed the nearest razor blade. You cut over and over till it was hard to recognize your own arm.

Tears streamed down your face as you repeated the same words over and over again. Worthless.

You heard the front door slam and you peered out the window. You stepdad was running to his car with a lot of his things, but mostly your moms.

"You told me think about it well I did!" You heard your ringtone go off blasting
King For A Day by your favorite band Pierce The Veil.

It was your friend Dan. You guys didn't talk a lot but you still hung out once and a while.

"H-hello?" You stuttered through tears. "Hey Y/N. Can I come over really quick I have to say something that is on my mind."

You froze. You looked at your arm and the fresh cuts. Long sleeves could work. "Umm. Of course come over anytime!"

Dan thanked you and a few seconds later you heard a knock on your door. How did he get here that fast?

Your arms though. They weren't covered. You ran downstairs to open the door and held your arm away.

"Hey Dan!" You fake smiled. "Hey Y/N, can I talk to you?" Dan replied. You nodded and you both joined each other on the couch.

"I don't mean to barge into any of your business, but I was passing by your house a few minutes ago and I couldn't help but hear... things." You froze.

Dan continued, "It looked very bad. I hurt wanted to come by and see if you needed anything or any company."

You smiled in your mind to think of someone actually caring about you. Dan was so sweet and caring.

"You're not barging in, your being a great person. I can't thank you enough for being there for me." You said.

Dan grinned and hugged you tightly. You hugged back and lay your head on his shoulder. You forgot about your arm so you jerked it back.

"What was that for?" Dan giggled sarcastically. "Did you not enjoy the hug?" You replied with a quick response.

"Nothing." You held back tears. Dan looked concerned. "Hey, can I see what your hiding from me?"

You decided to show him. He wouldn't judge you... right? Dan looked so startled. "Are those what I think they are..." Dan said cautiously.

You let a tear roll down your face. Dan looked at you and wiped the year away. "Y/N I'm so sorry. You don't deserve any of this."

Dan teared up and held your arm. "Whoever caused this is going to pay. You never did anything to them."

He hugged you and kissed your cheek. He reached down and kissed the scars on your arm.

You looked at him and replied, "Thank you for actually caring." You kissed him on the cheek back and held his hand.

"Please don't ever do this to yourself again Y/N. Your so amazing and beautiful to ever think anything bad about yourself." Dan said.

"If you ever think of yourself in a negative way, remind yourself of this moment and remember I care."

"I love you so much Dan." You stuttered. "I love you too Y/N." Dan smiled.

HEY CUBS! SORRY FOR THE SAD CHAPTER BUT I HOPE YOU ENJOYED! PLEASE IF YOU EVER FEEL LIKE THIS CONTACT SOMEONE. I DONT WANT YOU TO EVER FEEL ALONE. YOU ALL ARE SO BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT! I LOVE YOU GUYS <3 PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK OR MAKE A REQUEST! LOVE U GUYS!

"Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly." -Sleeping With Sirens <3

"Darling You'll Be Okay." -Pierce The Veil <3

"Don't let the world bring you down. There's always hope for the willing."
-Of Mice & Men