The Killer Girl:A Walking Dead Story

Chapter 10:I loved and I loved and I lost you

for a more sad effect on this chapter I suggest listening to It hurts like Hell by Fleurie I love that song so much prepare to cry when listening to that song

I tried to take as long as I could to wake up I didn't want to face Rick I couldn't "Everything Is gonna be alright"Carl says gently As he wraps his arms around my waist "He is gonna kill me"I say quietly "No he isn't i told him that if he was gonna blame anyone it should be me"Carl says and kisses my head

I take a deep breathe and I grab my gun and put it in my holster along with a few knives "Everything is gonna be alright ok I will be with you ok"he says I nod and I take deep breathe and I open the door to our room and I walk down the hall and Down the stairs Rick is in the kitchen and I avoid eye contact with him

But he looked up at me "Whats your decision"He asks I squeeze Carl's hand "I don't know yet Rick I'm still trying to process this"I say "Well you need to make your decision soon"He says "Well I already know what you want me to do"I say

"And whats that"He says "You want me to get rid of it"I say he sighs "I want you to do what you want to do I know you two can do this but I don't know if your ready for this yet"Rick says I let out a sigh "I-I- know I cant do this"I say weakly and quietly "Come on we should talk"Rick says we both sit on the couch I'm still holding Carl's Hand Rick and Michonne stand in front of us

"First off I wanna say I'm disappointed in both of you"Michonne says "As am I"Rick says "Shocker"I say and roll my eyes "And you weren't disappointed when I Killed a man with no mercy and I didn't hesitate"Carl says "That was different"Rick says Carl Jumps up

"Bullshit it is the exact same thing! Your just a killer! Thats all you are! And because of you Clover's Mom is dead and so is her Dad! The only reason why you attacked pete was so you could Sleep with Jessie! you didn't care about helping Sam or Ron all you wanted was Jessie! and Maybe I would have a Normal face if you just left it alone! And maybe Clove wouldn't be Pregnant and scared because guess what the reason why she ran was because she thought you where gonna kill her and that does sound like something you wouldn't hesitate doing"Carl yells angrily and harshly

He storms upstairs And I sit there in shock with what he just said he is right Shaking with fear "Clover is that true is that why you ran"Rick asks "Yea"I say "Look I wouldn't of killed you"Rick says "Stop lying yes you would!"I say and I storm upstairs Up to our room Carl is pacing back and forth angrily

"I did what you would say You handle those things better"Carl says I wrap my arms around him "I love you"I say "I love you too"He says He turns around facing me "You are so beautiful"He says he moves the strands of hair out of my face and places his lips on mine I wrap my arms around his neck

I pull away "When you where asleep in the infirmary I went to see you and I thought I was gonna lose you and I couldn't imagine that happening but when I imagined my reaction I was broken I wasn't insane I wasn't mentally stable I broke my cast off and I cut myself even more and I wasn't me You keep me sane and I love you so much words cant describe it"I say

He cups my cheek with his hand "You are never going to lose me I'm gonna be right here with you and our child ok I promise"Carl says gently and kisses me again gently "Come here"He says and pulls me close I burry my head in the crook of his neck "Im scared"I say

"Hey everything is gonna be ok look I will talk to my dad ok its gonna be ok"He says gently "No What if I decide to keep it and I cant do it"I say weakly Carl strokes my hair "Its gonna be ok Im not gonna let you do this alone"He says He kisses my head

"I Promised Enid I would hang out with her Today would of been her and Ron's 2 months anniversary and I want to go hangout with her"I say well more like Lie I just wanted to think by myself