A Bit of Fun

Part 2

Jun's POV

I trudged into my apartment, carrying my bag with my laptop in it.  I had just come back from dance rehearsal, and I'm exhausted.  I taught my local dance group the dance for EXO's "Fire", and we filmed a dance/violin cover for it too.

I love YouTube so much, but it can be a bit tiring.  Oh well, without YouTube I don't know what I would be doing right now, and I love dance.

I plopped down on the couch, laying down on my back.  I let out a couple deep breaths.  I've been living alone for so long, away from my siblings Devon and Jamie.  We had been so close as kids, I tear up just thinking about how they've grown up, and left me behind.
They both got into relationships, my brother, Devon, has a boyfriend named Mitch.  Jamie, she has a girlfriend named Janet, but we all call her Jojo, as the name Janet is a bit too formal for us all, after all, she's in her mid-twenties.

It sent chills down my spine as I thought about how in love my siblings are with their significant others, especially to where they would forget about me like that.  I feel so worthless.  I closed my eyes and took in the quiet from the fact that nobody was in the house besides me, a forever alone Korean dude.  Is it that hard for somebody to love me?  I like to think that I have some talent, that I look okay...

I let out a lonely sigh as I sat up, the only other noise in the room was the couch under me shifting as I moved.  I decided to turn on some music, fill the empty room with something other than silence.  I put on Pandora, decided that I didn't give a rat's ass what would play, and put it on a speaker.  I guess I have a lot of pent up rage over the fact that I don't have anyone since my siblings abandoned me.

A song came on, something by a popular JPop group, cool.   Another song, a song by My Chemical Romance, alright.  All of these songs were just stupid substitutes for a humans voice.  Besides mine, of course.  Then one song came on, it instantly gave me chills, I actually forgot about the loneliness for a while whilst it was playing.  It was called 'No Rain, No Rainbow'.  I instantly grabbed my laptop and looked up lyrics, desperate to understand the song.  It's by this band called Babymetal, and it's sang by the lead singer, of whom has a gorgeous voice, and its a love song.  I couldn't stop looking at the picture of the girl, Suzuka, while I listened to her singing.  It matched her so perfectly, so beautifully.

I closed my laptop as the song finished, as staring at a girl I didn't know was probably a bit creepy.  I dont know what it is, but I have to meet her.  I dont know why I'm so determined, or why I feel like I even have meaning, I'm just a useless body.  Waste of oxygen.  This isn't like me, to feel like this.  I can't like her... I haven't even met her!

My siblings, they told me about something.  About our family, about soulmates.  This can't be, I didn't think I was ever going to find someone, my siblings did and left me behind.  Nobody loves me and I've accepted that.

Wait, what am I thinking!?  I look at a picture of a girl one time and I already am contemplating our future as soulmates.  I need to chill, right?

This is weird, very weird.  I think for this, for this... I need to call in someone.  I don't know how much I'm going to talk about this, but... I need to talk to my brother.

Should I, even?  Or is this something for me to do myself?  I don't know...

I wanna find out, how do you know that somebody is your soulmate?  Is there some sort of miracle that happens and *bam*, you're together?

Oh well, I have plenty of time to think, as tomorrow I have a flight, by myself of course, to Singapore.  I fanned my face with my hands a bit to try to focus myself on the task at hand.  I started to pack my bag and I turned babymetal back on.  I didn't want to forget that beautiful voice of hers.  I knew that she had to be something to me. 

I had to be alive for some reason.