Came out to my mom in the car on the way home from the orthodontist as I blurted it out. I said "I am a boy, I feel like a boy too, I'm transgender" and my mom said "What?" and by then I was crying and my mom and I talked about it in the car for a while after we arrived home then we got and and she gave me a big hug and I went downstairs and calmed down. She told me everything will be alright and I'll get through this with her help and that she's always there for me.
- July, 2015Came out to my dad after he noticed on one of the days when gender dysphoria was bad that I seemed upset. I was in a pretty depressed the past month at that point and it was only my dad and I so he kept on guessing so I just sent him a link of the definition of "transgender" and waited for him on the couch and then he got up and sat next to me while I was curled up into the corner of the couch because I feel calmer and safer that way. And he was just calmly asking questions and stuff and he got upset that I haven't told him sooner after I told him that I knew for over 2 years and he was crying and after we both calmed down he told me that he supported me. (Later on he told me that my sister has come to him before because I became so distant).
-August, 2015Came out to my sister on the way to the movie rental store and we were walking our dog at night. Because this was after I had my first therapy appointment and she wanted to know what it was for. She was guessing and guessing until she said "transgender?" and I said "Ya" and she told me she kinda guessed. She said she either guessed I was straight or transgender (she still doesn't know about my sexuality yet. I haven't come out to her).
-Early September, 2015I came out to my grandparents with the help of my dad. We got them all to sit down at the table in their house. My dad told them how I was a guy and that I was transgender. My grandpa didn't give a shit. My grandma on the other hand got all touchy feely and was holding onto my hand and she was saying "come closer" and I got scared. Then my grandma was having a fit because I wouldn't be able to give birth :/ and then she flipped out thinking that I'm not the same person and my dad calmed her down and explained how I want to transition medically and it's my choice. And she understood more and forced me into a hug and was telling me she would even love me if I was a crocodile or kangaroo :") then we left. (Later on she called my dad and was sobbing to him how she felt bad about trying to force me to wear "girls clothes" and how she tried to pressured me to get dresses all the time. And that she was scared and didn't want to transition.
-Early September, 2015I got my dad to tell my brother. He was ok with it.
-Early September, 2015Basically got all of my hair chopped off so it's short and in some kind of shaggy haircut. Donated it all to wigs for children fighting cancer.
-Early/Mid SeptemberMy mom got me my first chest binder and it came in.
-End of September, 2015Got my name changed everywhere at school except places where its not possible
My mom got me like 3 packs of boxer :")
-End of September or beginning of NovemberMade an appointment to see the nurse practitioner (Dr Massarella), set to be at the end of November
-End of September, 2015Appointment with Massarella had to be rescheduled for the end of December
Had to be rescheduled again for Mid January
Another haircut/ started wearing my glasses more often
Obtained forms for a legal name change.
Obtained letter to change my gender marker
End of May, 2016Started Anti Stress near the end of July - Pills 3 a day every day
July 25
Sent out formsJuly 28
Finally got my packer and packing boxers in the mail from tranzwear
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A Transgender Male's Journal
Non-FictionA journal of my transition including coming out, appointments, injections, testosterone etc.