Bomb // Sirius Black

Devastation

Sirius thought that he knew the meaning

of devastation

and panic

and true sadness.

But it turns out he didn't.

not until he saw Jessie

the girl he loved

laying lifeless

on the ground

underneath the Astronomy tower.

Her brown hair

covered her face

as she sprawled on her side.

James was the one to find her.

His cries of distress

drew a crowd around the girl.

Hushed phrases of panic were spread, 

"someone get Dumbledore."

"oh my god." 

"Is that Jessie Montgomery?"

Sirius Black

was coming back from detention

when he saw the crowd. 

Curious, he walked over

to see what all the fuss was about. 

Remus Lupin,

his best friend,

saw him 

and tried to get him to stop. 

"Sirius, maybe you shouldn't go over there yet."

That's when Sirius knew something was wrong. 

Something was terribly wrong. 

He pushed through the distressed crowd

that went silent when they saw him. 

Seeing the lifeless girl

he fell to his knees 

and pushed her hair out of her face, 

not believing it. 

The eyes of the one he loved

were closed

and it almost looked as if she was sleeping

if it weren't for the blood. 

He held her body in his arms

and he cried. 

My god, did he cry. 

His anguished sobs filled the air

and people looked away, 

not wanting to intrude. 

Sirius Black 

was officially gone. 

No amount of coaxing 

could get him to leave his room

as he looked at every picture 

every memory

every song

every note

that he had ever shared with Jessie Montgomery. 

He went to her room

and looked through her things

to see what he could find. 

Her drawers held notes

that he had passed to her

during classes. 

Her trunk 

held love letters

he'd sent her during the summer. 

Her bathroom 

held the lavender shampoo

that she used to smell so beautiful

all the time. 

Her wardrobe

held the leather jacket

he had given her after she borrowed it. 

He picked up that jacket

two weeks after she died

and it smelled like her

and he cried again. 

Sirius Black broke down 

two more times 

after that day. 

Once when her funeral was held

the day after her birthday, 

May 19th, 

their three year anniversary. 

The other time

was when they graduated

one year later. 

On that day, 

not even her enemies 

could bring themselves to smile. 

Jessie Montgomery

was supposed to be there

smiling

graduating 

growing up with them. 

But she wasn't

because of a little thing

called depression. 

Two years later, 

Sirius Black

made the worst mistake he'd ever make. 

the last mistake he'd ever make.