Who Do You Think You Are

Chapter 19 - Do you really wanna be alone

Harry’s P.O.V.

That day at her place was a moment of escape, but when the time came to face reality I shrunk back. Being together felt so good. It should have lasted longer, but she wouldn't let it. I understood why. She needed answers, but that was something that I could not provide.

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Since she wasn't getting answers out of Harry, nor any response from Niall, Stacy decided to text both of them.

Harry made her feel great when he was around, but then he'd disappear and it scared her. 'This isn't the way a relationship is supposed to be,' she thought. And what was there relationship anyway? Maybe she was a bit old fashioned, but she didn't like the uncertainty of having him come and go. He hadn't actually asked her out and she needed to know where they stood - some security. *Harry, where r u? Where r we?*

He took a while to respond, but after a few minutes he called her up. She heard his voice low and faint through the phone.

"Stace, maybe we should slow down for a bit"

"Harry, you were the one who came over the other day...you were the one who kissed me, remember?"

"I know, but things are just crazy right now and...I'm sorry."

She nodded, knowing he couldn't see her. There was a lump in her throat, but at least she had some clarity.

"Okay, Harry. I guess you're right..."

She swallowed hard. It killed him to hear the flatness in her voice. Why didn't she call him Edward? It drove him insane, but he loved it at the same time. He was already missing her. “Aargghhh, I hate my life!” he moaned.

Next was Niall...

She sent him a text and then waited for a while. He didn't reply at first, but she tried again after a few minutes, eventually getting a response.

*Stace I'm really sorry for ignorin u, but I jus need some time t think*

*okay clover, but please promise me that you aren't going 2 stay made @ me 4ever:-|*

* I 'm not angry. I just need a little time t work things out for myself, that's all*

*I jus wish we could work things out together, u know...instead of us sittin in our separate corners, wish we cud talk like the gud ol frenz we used 2 b :(*

*I don't want my friendship with Harry to change but, at the same time, it's really difficult for me to be 'jus friends' with u." *

Stacy read the last text and felt her heart sink. What had her life become overnight? She dragged herself of the couch and went out to get the mail.

Zayn's P.O.V.

"I'm going away." Stacy declared, her voice determined.

"What are you talking about? Where are you going?"

"To Brazil. I applied to work at the orphanage there, remember." her voice was solemn.

"But, why now?"

"Because they need me. But also, because I need to get away."

"Don't you wanna think about it first?"

"I already have. It's obviously awkward for me to be hanging around. Niall made it clear that he needs space and time. And though Harry won't admit it, the situation isn't the simplest one imaginable."

"But that doesn't mean ya havta go away."

"I know, Zayn. But I just think that it's the right thing to do."

"It won't be forever. And besides, I've always wanted to do something like this." Stacy loved kids, I knew that. And they seemed to love her too. She had a big heart. I knew that she would be making a difference to people's lives by going, but I still couldn't help but be concerned about her.

"When will you leave?"

"In a week. The agency is just waiting for me to confirm in order to make the necessary bookings."

"How long will it be for?"

"A month. Maybe more. It depends on how it goes."

I really didn't want Stacy to go, but that wasn't my call to make.

"Okay babes" I sighed.

"Hey, you guys will be leaving soon too."

"Yeah, in a couple of weeks. The break goes way too fast." she laughed a little, making me feel better.

"Yea see. Then you guys are gonna be like 'Stacy who?'"

"Ahh that's not fair," I protested.

***

Stacy went to visit the boys after a couple of days. Liam had called to tell her that Niall was going home for a bit and though she really wanted to see him, she decided against it. 'It would probably be easier for everyone if I didn't go,' she told herself, not wanting to cause any more complications to their relationship. So she had waited until he left. But today Liam had asked her to come over. She wanted to speak to him about the trip she would be taking. He'd become like a big brother to her and she felt accountable to him. When she walked in, she realized that only three of them where around. "Where's Harry?" Louis asked Zayn.

"I dunno mate. He was here a little while ago."

Liam casually changed the subject and for the rest of the visit Harry was neither seen nor mentioned.