Not your CUP of tea

Dream

I was having this bad dream lately.

I was drowning.

And I see you staring blankly at me I was asking for help. Shouting at the top of my lungs.

Even though I know for a fact that you're not be able to hear me. You're being deaf, blind and stuck all at the same time. I don't know how you do it but you did it.

And that moment that I know I'm out of air, I woke up.

I know what that dream means. I know but I don't want to admit it to myself.

Yes, we're both tired of this situation.

We both know that being with each other is a sin to the eyes of everyone. But we didn't care and still pursued it.

I know that we will someday meet our limit.

I guess yours comes first in line and could not wait any longer for me to catch on. I was being left behind. You left me in this state of being left behind.

How I wish that I was fast enough to grab a hold at your running thoughts and figured it out early so the hurt I'm feeling won't last longer than it did today.

Anyways, that's how it should end.

I know that we won't last from the start. Because me loving you comes with lot of consequences.

Consequences that I, myself can't fight.

I was new at this type of relationship.

I'm sorry if I can't fight for you. Sorry, you left me because of that.

I'm letting you go. I know that holding on is not the right thing even though we loved each other.

I guess I need to love myself first before others. I need to find myself first so I look for true love. Hope you can wait till that happens.

Because I know for a fact that the gap between our fingers fits. And I love you because of that.

I love you no matter what.