Sick Notes | Park Jimin

[f u l l c h a p t e r]

yena

[i saw you again today]

yena sighed out as she landed her head on the wooden table and put her cheek on the table while facing the wide window, throwing her empty gazes through the window.

she was now in the school's library. she always spent her lunch time mostly, in this library.

she breathed in the cold air as she again, let out a deep sigh.

[i dont know if you notice it or not but im a committee member of this school's library]

yena then changed her head position as she turned her head around to the other side and stared at the library's counter.

yena saw there was a nerdy girl behind the counter as yena kept staring at the girl until the nerdy girl could feel the creepy stare that she got, so she looked up and her eyes met with yena's.

yena just blankly stared at the girl, emotionless. the nerdy girl felt the awkward sensation as she slowly got up from her seat and made herself busy while arranging some books on the rack behind her.

yena's eyes were still there, on the library's counter.

suddenly, a familiar figure appeared right before her eyes while he took in the nerdy girl's seat before and sat infront of the counter. she saw he was smiling at her and secretly waved at her.

it was, park jimin.

[you look exhausted]

the figure soon slowly vanished from her view like, dust. yena sadly smiled while stared at the now empty counter again as she knew that what she saw just now, was just her own imagination.

it was a prove of how much she missed jimin, her boyfriend.

yena remembered how she would always visited jimin whenever he was on his duty and both of them would like exchanging eyes contact whenever they got chance to do so. they would giggled afterwards then started smiling like two idiot love birds. it was, amusing.

yena really loved jimin. so much. but now, when hes gone, yena didnt know what to do nor couldnt do anything to get use to her now half-empty surrounding, without the orange hair boy's cheeky and bright eyesmiles.

[please dont skip meals]

yena sighed again as she turned her head back, facing the window.

yena could feel that her world collapsed the moment jimin left her. yena could feel that her heart broken the moment jimin left her without saying a goodbye. yena could feel that her life was now in mess after jimin left her, forever.

she has turned into a mess person last years after jimin left her, as she would always be in her room twenty four hours. she didnt bother to wash her sticky body nor didnt she bother to at least stuff herself with some food, for days.

she was too skinny and helpless, even for jimin's like.

yena let out a sad chuckle as she slowly closed her eyes. tried to bring the old memories back and let it all haunt her weak brain. she didnt mind, eventho she knew that at the end, she will get hurts later, over and over.

i miss you so much, jimin..

she tightly closed her eyes as tears escaped between her closed eyelids and silently flowed on her cheeks then gracefully dropped on the table.

she then sadly smiled.

"geez.. how can i go on with my life if literally everywhere i go or i do, will eventually involve you and make me think about you, more and more.."