Sister/Daughter Winchester Imagines - Supernatural

I Forgive You

Gabriel X Sister!Winchester

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Prompt: (16) Your best friend catches you self harming.

WARNING: Triggers, self harm.

You look down at your scar covered wrist. You couldn't take it anymore. There were voices in your head that weren't your own. Ugly, worthless, useless, fat, whore... All these things constantly screaming in head and eventually you started to believe them. The only way to get them out is by cutting them out. So that's what you did.

You snuck an old knife out of the impala's trunk, hoping nobody would notice. You pick an old scar and trace over it with your knife. You felt a little pressure in you head released, the voices a bit softer, so you go deeper in the same cut watching the thin line of blood pool into a puddle on the bathroom floor. You were so mesmerized by the dark red blood that you didn't even notice a figure appear above you.
"Y/n!" A deep voice says and your knife was snatched out of your hand. You looked up and saw your best friend, Gabriel.

"What are you doing?!" He asks shocked, but you were too stunned to respond. Gabriel sat down next to you on the wall and grabs your bleeding wrist. The pain soon fades and you look down at your wrist. All the blood and scars are gone. He healed you.
You ripped your wrist out of Gabriel's grasp and pull your knees to your chest looking anywhere but Gabriel's whiskey eyes, you wouldn't be able to handle the look you know he had. Disgust. Anger.

You felt like you disappointed one of the only people that would never judge you and never make you feel alone or forgotten. You thought he would leave you now that he's seen what a messed up person you are. Gabriel gently pulled your chin so you were forced to look him in the eye. You were shocked to see him almost to tears, "Why?" That one word was enough to make you burst into tears. You couldn't tell him why, he'd think you were a freak. No one wants to be around a crazy person. He'd go away and leave you alone with no one but your angry thoughts to keep you company.

As if he could read your mind he whispers, "I'm never gonna leave you y/n, ever. I'm not disappointed, or angry, just sad. I never want to see you hurt yourself, I love you too much. Whenever you're hurt it hurts me too. Please don't do this to yourself or at least come to me when you want to. I can help. Please, Let me help." Gabriel cupped your face with his hand and wiped my tears away with his thumb. You nodded, as that was all You was capable of at the moment. You simply rested your head on his shoulder as his arm wrapped around your small frame.

You continued quietly sobbing. Gabriel's hand passed through your hair. He pressed two fingers to the forehead putting you to sleep and silencing the voices in your head.
"I'm so sorry Gabe." You whispered closing your eyes. You felt a kiss on your forehead. "I forgive you y/n..." I am so lucky to have him, you thought to yourself before the darkness pulled you in.