Nathan Smith: NateWantsToBattle
I was at PAX Prime with Shady, Brett, Mark, and Jack. My phone started going off and Cassie was face timing me. I answered it and see Stacey driving. She giggled as Cassie turned down the radio,
"How much do you miss Nate, Stacey?" Stacey blushed and I half smiled realizing she was wearing me favorite color,
"Let's just say, I'm emotionally unstable. With him gone and the puppy thing, oh my god." Cassie laughs making Stacey giggle,
"How do you feel when you're with him?" Stacey smiles sighing,
"I love being with him. He makes me happy, I can't remember the last time I've been this happy." The boys all gather around me to listen,
"It sounds cheesy, but its true." She got a sad look making me wonder,
"What's wrong Stace?" She sighs,
"I don't know. I've thought a lot about it and I feel like I'm holding him back. I've lost subscribers because they say I'm holding him back, he doesn't upload as much as he used to because of me, and that I'm just gonna bring him down. The thought of this absolutely breaks my heart, I can't stand the thought of him stopping what he does because of me. That's the main reason I fell in love with him, he does what he loves, he's not afraid to show people who he is. The thought of that stopping makes me wanna cry." She took a deep breath,
"Have you told him this? I mean, thats how you feel, he should know." Stacey bit her lip,
"I'm a whimp when it comes to expressing my feeling. I could never tell him this, it would completely destroy me if he knew and ended up calling everything off because I never told him."
"I think he'd understand. If you're loosing sub's because of that, that's pretty fucking big. Stacey just tell him, he won't be mad." She sighs,
"When he gets back. Hell, lock me in a room with him until I say something." Lilly giggles,
"We all know you two would do more then just talk." Stacey laughs shaking her head,
"I'm not gonna lie." Cassie and Lilly laugh as I half smiled and Brett nudged me. They pulled over and Stacey looked at the phone,
"I love you, Nate!!!" Cassie and Lilly laughed before they hung up. Mark looked at me,
"What are you going to do?" I sighed,
"I'm gonna talk to her. I'm gonna head back tonight now that the panels over." Brett nods,
"I think that'll be good for the both of you." I half smiled slightly before getting up,
"If anyone asks, I went home for Stacey." They all half smiled and nodded. I went back to the hotel to grab my stuff, then headed out to the airport.
Hours later
I got back to the house and the kitchen light was on. I unlocked the door and hear the girls laughing. I set my stuff down and made my way to the kitchen. Stacey looked over and smiled. She kissed my cheek hugging me tightly. Cassie and Lilly said bye before leaving. Stacey sighed,
"I seriously would of told you if I wasn't scared of losing you."
"How would you lose me? Baby, nothing would tare me from you. Yes I wish you would of told me before hand, but that doesn't change anything." She took a deep breath to stop herself from breaking down,
"If your losing sub's because I pay more attention to you then that's not our problem. People don't understand that outside of YouTube, we have lives too. I asked you to marry me for a reason, that still stands. Stacey, I love you and if people are gonna be assholes and walk off because I wanna make sure your happy, then fine." She smiles lightly,
"I love you and nothing will change that. Your my main priority now." She wraps her arms around my neck as I stood between her legs while she sits on the island counter. I kissed her lightly making her giggle. Our grip tightened around each other,
"I love you, Nate." I smiled at her,
"I love you too, Stacey."
