(a/n sort of an alternate ending?? well, actually, more like what i think happened to "troye" aka yoongi after jimins jump. please enjoy.)
even after all these years, the pain of jimins death is still fresh in his heart and mind. it still hurts to talk about him, think about all their memories together, and of course regret all of the things he hadnt done to save his boy. on days when he wakes up with an ache in his chest, the bad bays, he goes out to the cliffs edge and takes a careful seat on a patch of grass, wind in his hair and sun blanketing his pale skin, everything reminding him of jimin more so than he would like to admit. he stares out at the sea, waves moving calmly and thinks about how this must have been exactly where jimin had stood.
"hey, jiminie." he says out to the sky, wondering if jimin may actually be able to hear his broken voice calling out to him. "i miss you. all the time, always." he continues, talking up to the sky as if its actually his radiant jimin right there in front of him. he stays silent for a moment after that, feeling the pain in his chest begin to disperse into a low hum of shock and longing in the back of his heart strings. he will always miss his jiminie, no matter what, but it just didnt hurt as much anymore. he was very grateful for that. "i hope you're doing okay, well- actually, more than okay. i hope you're happy." he says, smiling lightly to himself.
"i hope you and your father can finally get along up there, i hope hes treating you right now." he then says seriously, sighing lightly. he hopes that jimin can finally have the relationship with his father that his heart had always yearned for. he deserves it so much. "i love you, more than anything. i still do." he smiles a sad smile up to the clouds, and for a moment it feels like jimin is there, sitting right beside him, just like he always would. yoongi can feel the comfort filling his chest. "im okay now, i promise." he attempts to reassure jimins spirit, because maybe he saw how bad yoongi was doing just weeks ago.
"hey, i was thinking of traveling somewhere far soon, like we always talked about doing together. maybe i'll take some pictures and come back to show them to you, yeah jiminie?" yoongi smiles softly, and the rays of the sun against his skin feel like jimins warmth around him for just a moment. "i think you'd like that." he says, and then stands to go, brushing the dirt off of his jeans as he does. "i love you, jimin. so much." he muttered one last time, before turning on his heal, and going home. he could still see jimins smile every time he closed his eyes.
leave this blue neighborhood,
never knew loving could hurt this good, oh
