love story

chapter seven

Chapter seven

          Oh fuck what happened? All I can remember is that I was talking to Zane and then we kissed. That still does not answer the question, why am I naked? No!!!!!!!! I had sex with Zane last night. You have to be kidding me. What in the world was I thinking? His lips tasted so good though. I could not help myself. Why am I so dumb? I should have pushed away.

“Do not move.” I move away from Zane.

“I cannot believe I just did that with you.” I run to the bathroom.

          What am I going to do? This does not look good at all. What if his parents heard? I am going to be embarrassed for the rest of my life. I wonder if Sirius is going to be mad at me for having sex with his dad. Great now I ruined it. I am so stupid.

“Look Anne last night we might have done something that I want to talk about.” Zane knocks on the door.

“Why? You were the one who broke up with me. Now you act like you want me back. I do not know what is going on?” I start crying. “None of what happened last night should have happened. You need to leave.” The door opens.

“No, matter what I have always loved you. I don’t regret having sex with you.” Zane grabs me closer to him. “There is more but that’s going to have to wait for another day. Right now we have to get ready for our day. Let’s go out for dinner.” I nod my head.

“But it is just to explain.” Zane nods his head.

“Do not worry about anything.” I push Zane out.

          What am I doing? I cannot have dinner with him. I did not want to relive those few days I was with him. Those were good days except for the day that we broke up. Well I cannot say no, anymore. I told him I was going. Why is it that he does this to me?

“Mommy.” Sirius comes into the bathroom.

“What is it?” he sits on my lap.

“Are you and dad going to get together?” a chuckle escapes from me.

“No we are not. Why do you ask that?” Sirius starts crying.

“I want a mommy and daddy.” I hug Sirius closer to me.

“Okay well let’s not think about that. You let me and your father figure that out. Now let me get ready for our day.” I put Sirius down.

“Okay.” Sirius runs out.

          Now Sirius thinks I am with Zane. Well I do not blame him. I did sleep with him last night. Does he know what happened last night? Who was here when I had sex with Zane? Great now I am going to be self-conscious. What if Sirius is not okay with me and his dad? Did not I just think about this earlier? I am pretty sure I did. I just have to get ready.

“Sirius, should we put this picture here?” Sirius runs to me.

“No.” He runs back to his pile.

“Are you hungry?” Sirius stomachs growls. “Let’s go make something to eat.” I grab Sirius and head out.

(An hour later)

“Alright let’s eat.” Sirius stuffs his mouth.

          This kid is going to end up getting a stomach. I remember when I was a kid and I did that my mom would get mad at me. I miss her at times when I am not busy or when I see something that reminds me of her. I do not like it sometimes. But I am happy I remember her.

“Mommy, I want to sleep.” Sirius’s head drops on the food.

“That did not go well.” I carry Zane to my room.