Darkness in a rouge

Chapter five

I laid in bed wondering about the day before.

It was freezing.

My big, soft still unfamiliar bed was not warm enough.
I tossed to the other side.

I can't sleep.

My life has turned upside down. Although I've found my brother, and friends, and my life before this was lonely and dull, Its still a big thing to get use to.

My neck was bruised and soar for about three hours afterwards, then I healed quickly.

Being half wolf has its ups, but it also has its downs.

Im living with a Psychopathic killer that invades my mind.

Well thats a thing I thought to myself.

It was hard, longing for someone who doesn't care.

I decided to take a peek into his mind and try to have him not notice.

He was his wolf form, figures.
His thoughts were focused, he was awake, tracking what seemed like a dear.
Ive never really snuck into a mind of someone else's, To see what they see.

I can feel the cold snow on his paws. Maybe he's the reason Im so cold.

I looked into his memories.
He's been a wolf longer then Ian, practically all his life.

The first time he saw me I was crying, he had orders from Ian to see how I was doing. I was in my apartment cleaning dishes and I broke down.

He fell in love with me then, I think.

Then I decided to see how he left the pack. He was arguing with Ian in front of everyone. I could feel the power he wanted very badly. The power he craved.

Later after that, he ran. His whole wolf changed. As is form turned into the form it is now, it was painful. For hours on end he screamed in agony. The day after he declared himself out of the pack.

He was lonely and he filled that loneliness with a new toy, the pack.
How he played with that toy? Death. Lots of death.

He has crossed a line people may never come back from, but I believe he can. Yesterday He saved my life. I felt the teeniest bit if care from his Mind, he had love in there for me and its growing.

It cant be stopped, its impossible.

You done? His head boomed in mind. I immediately stopped what I was doing.

S-sorry.. I just.. Well.. I Was scrambling for an excuse.

What are mates for right?

The dear he was tracking was right in front of him, he began to chase it wildly.

You put up a strong case Jane winter, very compelling, you've almost convinced me.

His words were soothing, but also struck me with panic, the dear wasn't going to win this.

But you forget.

He caught it and pinned it to the ground.

I am a rouge. I am never going to change. There will always be death and theres nothing a little mate like you can do to stop me.

His teeth sank into the bucks neck, and he ripped it out clean

I gasped and sat up quickly in bed as if it was a nightmare.

I should hear his laugh echo threw my mind

Knowing I wasn't going to bed at all now I got out of bed grumbling. I threw some news clothes on, a hoodie, and some jeans, and grabbed a Mnt. Dew from the fridge in my bathroom for energy. You'd think I would drink coffee, but I hate coffee.