{ #1 } I Was Shooting For The Moon, I Hit Two Stars (MxMxM || 18+)

Chapter 44 - Confessions

(Mark's POV - Sun. 7 December 2014)

I am comfortably settled in one of these large white leather armchairs, but none of the luxurious equipment of Joshua's jet will soothe my pain or help me relax. My mother's sobs and incoherent sentences keep rehearsing in my head as I recline against the seatback and close my eyes.

I was quite pissed when I saw Aaron and Joshua barge into my playroom while I was fucking Shannon's mouth, but it was only for a brief second. It wasn't even embarrassment. We have shared so much since our teenage years – and even more over the past few years in Chicago – that I couldn't be bothered to interrupt such a hot scene with my boys. However, the worry and distress on their faces was enough to understand that something was wrong.

When the words I had feared to hear came out of Aaron's mouth, things occurred in some sort of daze for me, and my heart painfully constricted in my chest as I grabbed his phone and rushed to the bathroom to speak with my mother. Frustration coursed through me for not being around to calm her down, and unfortunately, my words of comfort were completely useless.

Within the few minutes I spoke with her over the phone, she barely managed a few words through her wailing, and eventually, it's one of her friends who was with her at the restaurant who told me that my father had had a heart attack and been transferred to ER with a guarded prognosis. Although I knew about Dad's health issues and all the exams he was going through at the moment, it was still a shock and I felt like a zombie when I walked back into my playroom.

I did register that Aaron and Joshua were taking care of the boys, freeing them from all the restraints they were tied in – including the leather straps I had wrapped around their privates to edge them. I should have been the one doing this, but I knew I could trust my friends for their kindness and respect, yet it only added to my guilt. Holding my boys and feeling their genuine support and concern helped a little, but the following minutes were quite painful and hard, especially as I had to reject their request to accompany me to New Jersey.

There were professional reasons to begin with. I know Aaron wouldn't have caused any problem, but I couldn't deprive him of one of his bartenders without proper notice. Le Marais could also deal with Alex's absence, but since he's supposed to take a full position of cook this week, I had rather he stayed here. But above all, I just couldn't butt in New Jersey with two boyfriends without having officially announced my situation to my parents yet.

I guess I could have done that in other circumstances, but I couldn't throw such a revelation in my mother's face when she's experiencing one of the worst hardships in her life. For crying out loud, she might be losing her husband right now, and as open-minded as she is, I'm not sure she'd like to see her son show up with two boyfriends in the present conditions.

I can only blame myself here, I should have spoken with her earlier. In my defense, the situation was a bit tricky since Alex joined us after my father's health issues had begun. I just wanted to protect them, without adding further stress to their current problems, waiting for a better opportunity to break the news. Now that I think about it, it was probably silly. My parents have always been so supportive that I'm sure they wouldn't have reacted badly.

Their motto has always been as long as you're happy, Mark, we're happy. Contrary to Joshua, Aaron and even Camden, my parents, and especially my mother, have always been great confidants, people whom I could trust my secrets with or ask advice from. Of course, we've had our disputes and they tried to reason me at specific times when they disagreed with my decisions, but at the end of the day, they've always respected and supported my choices. So, I can only blame myself for being alone on this plane, when I could have used my boys' support, and I promise myself to tell my parents about Alex as soon as possible.