The Real Me:The Side Nobody Sees

Summertime Sadness

  Summer break is the time when you're supposed to enjoy your time off of school, relax and forget about academics. I've been out of school for I think three weeks now and I hate it. I'm extremely bored, I do nothing but sit around, and vacation might not happen, I'm not sure. I miss my friends, and everyone to be honest. I feel more anti social than a rock, if that makes sense.
  Also, I've been having random memories of my ex boyfriend, which makes me shiver. I used to think about them on purpose, but now they disgust me, considering he hates me and vice versa. There's a part of me that still cares for him, but why? What has he done to deserve my thoughts and care? Absolutely nothing, that's for damn sure. He's made my life hell especially the closer to the end of school we got. Though I find it funny he avoids my boyfriend and I on purpose if he sees us at school, which makes me somehow think he's jealous. How could he be jealous, I mean he could always go after someone else.....oh wait it's not a thing I'm just overthinking again.
   This is what happens when I have free time. I tend to overthink everything. This leads me into false accusations, which gets me into trouble. He's probably better off without me and avoids me to avoid drama. Simple as that, nothing complicated. I need to stop thinking about him, he's not helping in any way, shape, or form. Sure, I once loved him with all of my heart but he took what I gave and crushed it into such small pieces, it cannot be fixed easily.
  Anyways, I hate school, and me wanting to go back just to escape boredom makes me wonder about myself. I have to start finding ways to make myself entertained, but how? I seriously just read, listen to music, occasionally play video games with my sister, and watch Netflix. Somehow, I manage to get bored between all of this which makes me feel even more bored. Ugh, the struggles of a bored teenage girl.
  I hope my readers' summer is better than mine is going so far! I hope to have more interesting things to write about but it's 4 am and I'm just passing time. Love you guys!
~K