The Real Me:The Side Nobody Sees

Somebody? Anybody?

  I lost another friend, am I really that unappealing? My mom says its for the best but I'm not quite so sure. Why listen to her, she never listens to me. I feel so empty inside, like I'm never heard. My "friends" keep dropping like flies, and it's mostly due to me or family members. Ugh, great another thing to cloud my thoughts.
  On a happy note, I started my job today at a local ice cream store. That store is all about speed, satisfaction, and smiles. I'm supposed to constantly be smiling all the time, which helps my depressed feelings, but it doesn't make them go away. I'm happy I actually have something to do this summer besides lay in bed. I'm one of those people that easily get bored, so a job helps.
  I kinda feel like my high school years are flying by. In 2019, I'll be graduating and going to college for journalism. I'm being a typical teenage girl and daydreaming about my wedding, having a family, stuff I shouldn't be worrying about. I'm only a sophomore (in August) so I really should be focusing on fangirling but I can't help myself. Oh well, I'm sure it's nothing.