Skinny Love || NamJin

Mine

I still can't believe Namjoon hugged me like this, in the cafeteria, in front of everyone! Not that I mind, It's just... new to me. That someone touches me, and talks to me.

"This looks cute" I mumbled and looked at some phonecases at a store. I need a present for Namjoon. I looked around, but I just really don't know what he likes. Maybe I should do something on my own? I picked up a white case and bought it. I will color it on my own, he probably likes handmade presents.

I bit my lip, trying to color the phone case, its harder than I thought. I colored in rainbow colours (cos namjoon is gAY) and wrote his name on it. I hope he likes it, after I finished the case I picked out some clothes for the birthday, a pastelpink Hoodie and black jeans , I hope he likes the way I look. Wait, why do I want him to think of me as pretty!?

"10 pm" I looked at the clock and sighed, if I have nightmares again I will freaking break a mirror. with my face buried in the pillow I finally fell asleep and this night I even had some good dreams.

"It's okay Jinnie" A familiar voice said and smiled at me. I couldn't see the person, but I felt save and I knew I can trust this person. He held my hand and helped me walk around, my legs were injured, but it didn't hurt because he was here. By my side. "I'm always here for you" He whispered.

I suddenly woke up , my stomach hurt and I ran to the bathroom and quickly peed before I would explode. "hahh" I sighed satisfied and then got back in my bed, "Shit" I mumbled, It was already 1pm, I need to take a shower and chqnge quickly. As I ran into the bathroom, I almost fell down on the floor, but made it into the shower and didn't gave a shit that the water was cold. I was really happy, but I didn't know why.

I checked myself in the mirror, before I let out a loud sigh and then walked out of the door and took the bus to Namjoons House. Please, Please, let there be not much people! I prayed to myself, my hands already started sweating . Am I really able to do this? What if I can't move again? Maybe Namjoon just pranks me, I mean, he is so popular and why would he like me? before I could deepen these thoughts, the bus stopped and I got off. "Gosh" I mumbled as I saw the crowds of people, Namjoon is almost like a celebrity. I looked down and quickly walked into the house, where the fuck is he? But then suddenly someone grabbed my wrist "Jinnie~" It can only be namjoon, i turned around and smiled shy "I'm glad you came, you are my special guest!" He said smiling at me like an angel. I blushed, his special guest? pfft, what a dork "U-Uh, yes.. here is your present" I mumbled and gave him the phone case, "Did you color it?" He asked and I mentally slapped myself "Is it really so bad , that you can see that I made it?" I said sighing, he laughed and hugged me "I love it jinnie, thanks~ It's the best present ever" He said in a soft tone into my ear and I felt like dying, he smells so good... I sniffed his shirt a bit and closed my eyes, It was like I was falling into trance "Jinnie!" I snapped out of my thoughts "u-h.. yes?" - "Don't daydream, do you want a beer?" I shook my head and looked down "I don't drink.. sorry" I mumbled under my breath and looked at him "Thats fine, I have some juice too" He said and handed me a glass "the food is in the kitchen" I thought he was finished, but suddenly he leaned down to me and whispered "If you're feeling uncomfortable, just tell me, okay?" I nodded and looked away, he knows me a bit too well. He smiled and then walked away and talked with some of his friends. Now I was alone and bored, but also stressed, what should I do? I don't know anyone on this party.

I'm already 30 minutes here and haven't talked with anyone in this room... ugh, this sucks. My hands are sweating and everything is just so uncomfortable. Suddenly namjoon came back into the room, he was a bit drunk and came up to me.

"jinnieee~" He happily said and hugged me tight "Is everything alright?" he then asked. I looked down and couldn't move, everyone was looking at us and whispering. I can't push namjoon away, that would be mean but I feel like a stone again, not able to move and filled with anxiety. Please make this stop.

Tears were rolling down my face and stared at Namjoons Collarbones. "Jin, hey, Look at me" He pulled my face close to his and sighed "I'll make this stop" he whispered and then let go of me.

He got up on a table "Guys, go home, the party is over!" He yelled, it didn't take long and everyone was finally gone. I sighed and sat down on the couch, still tears rolling down my face. Namjoon sat down next to me and pulled me close to him "Jin, whats wrong, tell me"

"I have social anxiety"

Hellu owo if u don't know what social anxiety is, just look it up its a mental disorder , pretty deep story am I right? xD i am too lazy to explain, and omg almost 1000 words hhh *proud*
bye

P.S: Y'all shall read Fujoshx3 Fanfictions (pretty good stuff)