Namjoon is making some breakfast now and I'm sitting at the table, waiting for the food. I played with my sleeves and bit my lip, i'm so nervous around him, since I know about my feelings.
He put eggs, noodles and kimchi on the table. I started eating when he finally sat down and I just can't stop staring at him, he is so damn cute.
We finished eating and then went back to Namjoons bed, we laid down together and didn't say anything. Even though I have such a bad social anxiety, I am so calm around Namjoon. He just makes me feel save and normal.
"Jin" Namjoon said "Don't you want to go home? I mean.. not that I don't like it with you, it's just getting pretty late" I opened my eyes, and looked at namjoon because I laid on his lap and fell asleep. "Oh.. right, sorry" I mumbled sleepy and stood up. Suddenly the younger grabbed my wrist and pulled me down on his lap, our lips almost touch and I felt his breath, his wide beautiful eyes looked into mine. "Jin, thank you for trusting me" He said in a soft but also serious tone "I told you to get here, to this birthday party full of people you don't know.. I.. I'm so sorry for scaring you, I don't want you to feel paniced or unsave-" - "It's fine" I said and cut him off "Thank you for being my friend Namjoon" Yes. Friend. Nothing more.
When I walked home I couldn't resist it, I started crying like a little baby, the tears rolled down my face like a river. Why does this hurt so much? Why is he my friend? Once he really knows he will throw me away like everyone else did. "Fuck" I mumbled and wiped my tears away with my sleeves "Just let me go already.. I don't want to feel pain"
I came home and greeted my mom, obviously she ignored me, like always. Sighing loudly I walked upstairs and laid down on my bed.
You received a Message from Namjoon
"Hey Jinnie :-) See you on monday" 8:40pm
Read at 8:40pm
Namjoon POV
Why does he not reply back?
"Jin?" 8:45pm
read by jin
"Did I do something wrong?" 9:00pm
read by jin
"Sorry.. Did I hurt you? Are you sad? Did someone do something to you?" 9:15pm
read by jin
"Jin.. please" 9:20pm
read by jin
"Jinnieeee" 9:21pm
read by jin
You received a Message from Jin
"I don't think this friendship is good for me, we should stop being friends" 9:25pm
Very depressing chapter, I'm sorrey ;-; (no actually not) I hope you liked the chapter and don't forget to vote , it would mean a lot to me ( ･ัω･ั ) ~
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Skinny Love || NamJin
Fanfic"Isn't it scary to fall in love when you were always scared of it?" In which the shy boy Jin falls in love with the Schoolidol Namjoon
