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*NEW MESSAGE: Harry StyleS*

Harry StyleS 2.03am: How does it come that you didn't have sex with Ryan?

Me 2.04am: I don't know actually, I just wasn't up for it.

Harry StyleS 2.04am: But you were dating like a year?

Me 2.04am: 10 months, yep.

Harry StyleS 2.04am: ..And no sex?

Me 2.05am: I don't know Harry, it's not like I find my virginity the most precious thing in the world, but it never felt totally right.

Harry StyleS 2.05am: I thinks it's good, it always should feel right.

Me 2.05am: Yep. I just, back when Ryan and I broke up, I thought about this very pathetic thing that he maybe didn't want me anymore because of that

Harry StyleS 2.06am: Because of what? You simply saying no to sex?

Me 2.06am: It sounds even worse like this, but yes

Harry StyleS 2.06am: Dudes with issues like him, always have the blame on their side. It was never anything wrong with you, trust me

Me 2.07am: I know, but still? I mean, he had reasons too I guess

Harry StyleS 2.07am: Oh shut up

Harry StyleS 2.07am: Reasons? Maybe. Did he had the right to do something like that? No. Simple as that and can we please don't talk about him he isn't worth our time

Me 2.07am: You did start it haha

Harry StyleS 2.08am: No, I asked about you not him :)

Me 2.08am: True, but u mentioned him!

Harry StyleS 2.08am: Also true

Me 2.08am: Any more night thoughts u wanna share Styles?

Harry StyleS 2.08am: Hoped you'd ask that :)

Me 2.08am: Then go for it

Harry StyleS 2.08am: Eh, probably not it seriously is a mood killer

Me 2.08am: Harry

Harry StyleS 2.08am: God it's gonna feel weird saying it ''out loud''.

Me 2.08am: It's your choice, I'm not going to pressure you Harry.

Harry StyleS 2.09am: I wanna visit my mother.

Me 2.09am: Nothing's stopping you from doing that :)

Harry StyleS 2.09am: I know, but still I can't make myself do it.

Harry StyleS 2.09am: It's the same thing with sleep. I want to sleep, but something's stopping me and I just can't.

Me 2.09am: I can drive you there if you want.

Me 2.09am: I mean, just drive you so you don't have to do anything but get inside and get out of the car. If you really want to visit her, I can do that.

Harry StyleS 2.09am: I know you can, Anastasia

Harry StyleS 2.09am: I know.

Harry StyleS 2.09am: And probably that's what we gonna do. I just have to think about it more, I haven't been at her grave for three years.