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Emma lil'fucker 10.44am: How have you been doing?

Me 10.45am: Alright, I guess

Emma lil'fucker 10.45am: Have you talked to Harry since that phone call? It's been like four days after all

Me 10.46am: Nope

Emma lil'fucker 10.46am: Oh okay

Emma lil'fucker 10.46am: I know you haven't like wanted to talk about it, but what did you two talk about after all that crap with Clarie seeing him with that girl? All I know is that it wasn't that kind of kiss Clarie saw, but a kiss for a truth or dare game

Me 10.48am: I really, really like him Emma

Emma lil'fucker 10.49am: I know you do Ana

Me 10.49am: But it won't ever work out.

Emma lil'fucker 10.51am: Why not? What did you talk about?

Me 10.52am: He explained it all, and I believed him about the kiss -that it was just a truth or dare and he apologized because he understood that he went too far. He never saw it as anything special though, just a part of a game. And he seemed so honest and genuinely worried that I wouldn't want to listen to him. I believed him even though I couldn't avoid the feeling that he might be lying since I have experiences with lying guys (Ryan). So at first, the phone call was actually quite calming and I was happy for speaking with him again, hearing his voice and jokes.

Me 10.54am: But then, the more we spoke the more I begun to realize that for every minute that passed, my feelings for him were growing, while our chances for us did the opposite. We basically ended the phone call by him accepting the fact that I may need some time, but that he would be just there if I would change my mind. He also said that he couldn't promise me that he wouldn't be reaching out to me since he can't imagine not keeping in touch with me.

Me 10.56am: Frankly, the next day I somehow was on better thoughts. I thought about people having long distance -even though I know that me and Harry aren't "there", I did see the possibility for us going there.

Emma lil'fucker 10.58am: So, what is the problem?

Me 10.58am: I got the news that I'm going to Washington

Emma lil'fucker 11.02am: WAIT WHAT

Emma lil'fucker 11.02am: YOU GOT IN!?! ANA! This is big! Omg, I'm so proud! Congratulations!!

Me 11.03am: I also got it in Chicago and Boston. But I've dreamt of Washington for so long.

Emma lil'fucker 11.05 am: I know, but aren't you happy?

Me 11.07am: I thought I would be happier to be honest

Me 11.08am: It's just a damn guy, why can't I just ignore him?

Emma lil'fucker 11:09am: I think you know the answer

Emma lil'fucker 11:09am: He came and changed a lot. He showed you everything that you thought you would never have after being with Ryan.

Emma lil'fucker 11:10am: Ana, in all honesty -guys come and go. Only you know if this one is worth your time. And since I'm not the best with guy-advice, I don't know what else to say than that you should think of your future first of all, and choose the school of your dreams. If he is a part of that future, well -we'll have to wait and see