The Beauty Inside (boyxboy)

Chapter 5

Jamie's POV

I need to find my father. He'll know what is happening. He knows everything. I left Priscilla's house and ran off. 

I only knew of one situation in which this kind of behavior is expected in a wolf, but it goes against everything I stand for. Like I said, I will not let another person dictate my life. But what if...?

No. I was not going to let this happen. It's all just in my head. It's because Kasey cheated, and I am just confused. 

I was so focused on my thoughts, that I didn't even notice there was another person on the sidewalk. I couldn't slow down in time to avoid hitting them, and I couldn't find my voice. Then I ran into the person. It took me less than a second to realize that it was that vampire boy Luca. My heart sped up as I lifted myself from on top of him. My arms were holding me up, but looking into his eyes as he opened them made me weak. 

"It's you again?!" Luca said. It hurt a little that was his response. I didn't really know what to say. Oh, hey, it's just me, the werewolf dude who tried kissing you at a party. The thought of kissing him sent a shiver down my spine. Damn it! Well, if my manhood wasn't working before, it's definitely working now. 

"Oh, uh, hi. Sorry." I looked away awkwardly, but I brought my attention back to his face.

"Didn't I tell you to stay away from me?" He said coldly. I could see the hatred in his eyes, and it pained me to see that. I breathed heavily. Looking back, I remembered the incident that had just happened. So Priscilla, who has been loving me forever, who is wanted by every working male in the school can't turn me on, but this asshole male vampire who hates me can.

"I was just running away... Why are you here?" He looked offended by my question. But it was accurate. Vampires don't go in this neighborhood.

"Because I have every right to. Why do you ask?" He looked away. His attitude was annoying me. I didn't like how he was treating me. Then his eyes widened. I felt my wolf side take control as he tried sliding from under me. I put his shoulder down so he would stay. I didn't care. I have to have him. I need him. I leaned down to him. I paused when I was close enough, to think about what I was doing. I was about to back off and apologize when he leaned up and kissed me. It was pure bliss. They say there's a heaven, and I found it in his lips. The pressure in my pants became painful. 

He pulled away a quickly as it happened. Before I could even think, he was gone. I couldn't even look up. I couldn't believe it. I actually just kissed a dude. A dude. And I liked it. But I couldn't tell my dad this. This was too weird.

I became more aware of the pain in my pants. I needed to do something about that. I decided to go back to Priscilla's and change her opinion about me. I slowly got up and walked back to her house, contemplating everything.

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Luca's POV

I paced in my living room. I couldn't comprehend what had happened. I kissed him. Kissed him. I mean, it wasn't like I haven't ever kissed a guy before. When you live a long life, you do a lot of interesting things. But him? Of everyone? Why? 

I had ran off to my house as quickly as possible. I couldn't breathe. The worst part about this is that I enjoyed it. I'm straight. I'm not into guys. That's not my kind of thing. 

I tried to process this. Okay, I kissed him. That's fine. But I liked it. That's not fine. I'm straight. I am probably just deprived. It has been an awful long time since I've had sex. I was just about to walk out and find someone when my brother walked in the house.

"Luca, are you okay?" My face must have looked awfully weird, because my brother cares less about my well-being than anyone else.

"I'm fine, Jean." I turned and sat down on the couch.

"Really? You look like someone just killed your best friend."

"Well, I do feel like I died." I covered my face with my hands.

My brother chuckled. "You are dead."

"You know what I mean." I said into my hands.

"Oh, little brother, what's bothering you? I haven't seen you this upset since... Well, since you became a vampire."

"What do you care?" I opened my fingers to look at him.

"I'm your big brother-"

"Oh, don't give me that shit. I know you could care less about my feelings. You've made that clear."

"Fine. You just seem very off, and I dislike that. I honestly haven't seen you this upset since that day. It worries me."

"I would prefer not to talk about it. Especially to you."

"Fine." He paused, looking around the room. He sat down next to me and leaned back. "So what all happened with the dog issue?"

"Did I not just tell you..." I realized he doesn't know what happened. "It's fine. I just have this grudge. Don't worry yourself." 

"In all seriousness, Luca, if that wolf makes one wrong move... You know we will fight."

"Yes, brother. I know." I said. I didn't have look at him to know that he was gone. Frustrated, I groaned. "What if I'm the one who crossed a line?" I whispered to myself.

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Jamie's POV

I walked to Priscilla's. When she opened the door and saw me, her face lit up. She was going to get what she wanted. And I was going to prove that I am able to do her.

We cut straight to the activities, and she was ready. We didn't even bother with foreplay. I barely had the condom on when she pushed me on her bed and lowered herself onto me. After that, it went as it usually does. She went up and down, until I took control and inserted myself with more force. She liked that. After a while, she finished, and I finished right after.

It felt wrong. I knew deep down that I was cheating her. I was only using her. And it felt like crap. I got up immediately and started putting my clothes on.

"Why are you getting up? We just finished." She said, propping herself up on her arm, the sheets only covering her lower half. I looked away.

"I have to go." I said quickly, zipping my pants up.

"Bull. Come lie down next to me." She grabbed my hand. "Please." I turned to look her. She had so much hope in her eyes. I caused that.

"Priscilla... I... I'm sorry. I can't do this. This was a mistake. I shouldn't have slept with you." I looked away, pulling my hand out of hers.

"What do you mean, 'a mistake'?" Hurt coated her voice like a deathly poison.

"I don't like you like that."

"Well, five minutes ago you seemed to like me pretty well."

I sighed. "I only slept with you because I... Because I felt the need to prove myself. I'm sorry, but this won't go any further. I have to go."

I rushed out of her empty house as quickly as I could. I really didn't enjoy any of that. I felt almost repulsed as our bodies were intertwined. And I was distracted by the fact that I had just made out with a dude. I needed to talk to someone about this. But who? I can't just tell someone I kissed a dude.

I decided to just let things be until school. I needed a break.