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by newmoon7777

by newmoon7777

Hehehe I know none of you care . It might be a wonder if anyone cares at all. Let me tell you about my life .

I feel left out by my friends . One of them is a primadonna and the other is a copy of Regina George's bffs .

But that's okay . They're nice sometimes. Sometimes I wonder how we became friends. I'm a sad loner . I wonder why I haven't succeeded in killing myself yet .

People are fake to me. I would appreciate it if anyone could actually love me and actually care.

It took me awhile to realize that sometimes the people who you believe love you with all their heart, hate you and wish you'd die.

I feel really bad. I want to hear the truth so badly but I just don't want to express myself or my feelings or my thoughts or anything for that matter . Because people will act like they care . And they really don't . And there are others who will just look at you in disgust , tell you you need help ,or give you the false hope things will get better.

They won't .☺

I'll still hope and wish and dream. But no matter what, the little fight in my head , the drama in life , the panic in my life .

They'll come back .

I'd like to be told the truth . And not cry to sleep . That'd be lovely .

I'm so tired of trying to tape back every heart and satisfy everyone. I'm tired of living .

I'm tired of getting my heart broken piece by piece . I'm tired of being alone.

I'm so tired .I'm lost . And I'm dying inside. I can put on the stupid smile . And the reassuring eyes . But I'll never show the fact that I'm depressed.

I wish I could say everything I thought . Just so that people would know . But I can't . I can't say things or do things or smile like a regular human being and mean it.

Just a worthless, pathetic, hideous , hopeful , psychopathic moron. I'm much more too.

But that's for later. For now I'll smile and pretend I'm fine . I'll pretend nothings wrong. And yes , sometimes people do hurt me , and I can't say why . I DON'T WANT TO RUIN ANYTHING OR ANYONE MORE THAN I ALREADY HAVE. I'm just an idiotic mistake . A destruction itself . A tragedy .

And now you all know a piece of the real me .